So today, I woke up feeling moody, grumpy and fat - Pregnant and fat. My stomach is getting quite big, my butt is sagging, my waist (what waist?) and my hips are spreading out like melted butter on toast.
Ha, I did make some 12-grain toast with grass-fed butter for pre-breakfast (later, I am going to have eggs, avocado and banana):
And then I reminded myself that I'm creating a human inside my body and that is such a strange and bizarre miracle that only women are capable of, and I felt slightly better. Still feeling super sized, but better.
Also, it has just dawned on me that we are more than halfway through this pregnancy and that's a very very scary feeling. Terrifying really. We're not ready to be parents yet (people say, you never will be ready and it will come naturally), but I SERIOUSLY feel like we are not ready and I do not want to ruin my boy's life, lol. And that can be quite intimidating and overwhelming sometimes. A lot of times.
There are times when I have felt on top of the world - I'm going to be a mommy! And my cute little belly bump is holding our baby! But then I have to remind myself that there are going to be other times, like today, where I just feel lost and overwhelmed, heavy and uncomfortable with my current body. It's like my body isn't my own anymore, you know what I mean?
I'm going to laugh at myself in a couple more months when I'm really big, aren't I? I guess it's really time to embrace the changes my body is going through!
So, I say to myself Stay Calm and Eat On!