I can't have any control over the past. No matter what my feelings are about an incident, I cannot change actions or words, of my own or others.
So when I approached my car this morning and saw a shattered window, I certainly had emotions. I felt inconvenienced that I would not be able to meet with my co-workers on one of the few opportunities we get to meet and discuss our patients in person, and missing important training too. I felt glad that I had been the only victim (that I could see) on the street. I felt sadness and anger, simultaneously for the person that shattered the glass and a sense of security.
But when a concerned neighbor came over to make sure I was alright and inform me that unfortunately, another car on her block was also broken into, she admitted that she was a bit surprised.
"Wow, they really just threw a wrench in your day, huh? These kids need to get a job and some parents to discipline them."
I shrugged my shoulders, sweeping some glass out of the path of street traffic.
"Today is the warmest day of the week and maybe even the month so I won't be too uncomfortable. Plus, I didn't have any valuables inside, so it'll just be the cost of the window."
She looked very impressed with my response and honestly, I am too. I have been a person to remain in my head too much, analyzing information that no longer has much impact on my present and future (with the exception of lessons to learn from). Maybe last year, I would be crying, cursing this person, and even trying to figure out what could have decreased these chances. I won't change much as I have to park on the street and I already take valuables inside when I leave me car.
My lack of agonizing over broken glass (and even cracking some jokes with my neighbor) has led me to already have the mess cleaned up and I'm finding a repair shop now, so excuse the quick post. Improving your mental health means committing to a healthy mindset with each new surprise, over and over; it should get easier but it should never be taken for granted. Let the past lie and spend your energy toward your future.
And remember, the steem work makes the dream work ;*