Man this hits hard... for a second I thought it was the same girl somehow.

I think we all have to deal with addiction to some varying degree these days... everything is marketed at us to feed us those little hits of dopamine and we're constantly left craving more... I don't think you're alone at all in this regard.

Don't stress about posting every day, don't make it a chore... it should be fun and (hopefully) a means to excise those demons.

Sorry you've had such a rough time... especially since everyone concentrates so hard on having the best time ever.