Spanish language below 馃憞
馃憦Hello, a pleasure to participate in this initiative about the disappointments we have had in our lives, I had not had the pleasure of sharing with you until today thanks to @ nill2021.
鈽癸笍Well, we want to know about your biggest disappointment and why? Some history.
My greatest disappointment is with life or perhaps with myself, let's start briefly from the beginning, I am Cuban born in a humble family where she was only my mother for all things, at 2 months old, my grandmother for reasons of disagreement, boot my mother along with me and my sister. And no, it's not literal, he went to the street with all his clothes on!
Things in life, my mother was lucky enough to find herself in the middle of the park hours later, desperate, with a man who had loved her for years and that was the way out, they gave us a blanket in that home and to this day despite having passed away, that man is like our father.
Over the years our reality did not advance beyond misery, my mother sold her body to feed us, something that I found out when I was older, and the one who was like our father struggled to bring bread to the house, but it was not enough. For this reason, since I was little I had as my main purpose to become someone important through my studies and efforts to help my family.
When I was only 8-9 years old, I had to take care of helping my sister at home. Studies were always my forte. I was good at almost all subjects except math and I finished with very good grades. Over the years I lean towards the specialty of computer science and with a lot of effort I managed to obtain a place in the pedagogical university 篓Hector Pineda Saldivar篓 in the evening shift and at the same time I worked as a teacher and network administrator in a Center Technological of Agronomy and Veterinary.
They were years of hard effort and improvement, but always with the hope of obtaining new opportunities with that title, full of dreams of improving our home, being able to buy new clothes and get away from the worries of what dish to put on the table.
馃様Reality above expectations summarized
To give rise to the reason for my disappointments, I will summarize my reality up to this moment without any exaggeration.
Poverty inside the house despite achieving high studies has never ceased to be part of my life, I said it once, it is like a disease stuck to one for life.
My mother never managed to get over it, after the death of the man who helped us, we kept the house, but in very bad conditions, today, despite her crushed 63 years, she continues to work in order to survive.
Today at least I have been able to create a family, but I continue in the same, I live with my wife in her house who also has a family with the same problems of poverty and in turn, with my meager salary I must manage to put a plate in the table in that house and in my mother's.
Inflation in Cuba is getting worse and worse and you no longer live, you survive, despite doing some odd jobs when I finish working to get something extra, despite making an effort and having 2 jobs, I can't get out of my sad reality.
馃槪All this leads me to disappointment. Will it be from me or from life?
Logically I have tried to summarize the whole course of my life, but the objective of this publication is to take you to the reasons for my disappointment, of that feeling that gnaws at me inside every day.
If you ask me right now if everything has been sadness in my life, I would honestly answer no, there have been incredible moments and in fact, things that I never thought I would achieve. Now, if you ask me if I'm still frustrated and disappointed, I would answer yes without hesitation, I don't know if it's with myself for not being able to get ahead without worries, I don't know if it's with life itself, which keeps me going despite my efforts in the same misery.
I feel bad, in case in the middle of these lines I find myself stressed thinking that he is going to eat at home today, because the cold is empty, and I even have money, I just received my salary, but it is not enough, it is not enough to eat and buy basic products for my little girl who is less than 2 months old. This leads me to feel defeated and disappointed in myself.
As a result of the birth of my daughter, I made the decision to have 2 jobs, it is hard because it is very exhausting, it gave me joy when I got a place in one of the best chocolate factories in Cuba as a computer scientist, it was incredible, but disappointing to see which doesn't solve my problem.
It disappoints me even more to see how my friends and many people manage to leave the country after their dreams, and to see how I am left behind, without any chance of anything, given that every last peso must be spent to support my family, it disappoints me to see that I am a university student and I have not achieved anything, I study so much to continue running after crumbs in the same misery.
I am disappointed in the life I have, I am disappointed in my reality, that is the sad truth.
馃檭How do you get over that disappointment
I can't get over the disappointment, I have positive days, days when I laugh with joy and enjoy my family, days when I hug my mother and tell her that I'm looking for alternatives, that everything will be fine, days when I ask God with faith and I trust that I will have an answer to my prayers.
With my little girl
With my Wife
The disappointment is there, latent... it is heard softly in my mind, it consults me every day and reminds me that my efforts have been in vain.
A pleasure to share with you a little of my reality. A hug and a lot of blessings. I leave you my links in case you want to know a little about me.
VERSI脫N ESPA脩OL 馃榿
馃憦 Hola, un placer participar en esta iniciativa sobre las decepciones que hemos tenido en nuestra vida, no habia tenido el placer de compartir con ustedes hasta hoy gracias a 
馃槓Bueno, queremos saber acerca de tu mayor decepci贸n y porqu茅? Algo de historia.
Mi mayor decepci贸n es con la vida o quizas conmigo mismo, comencemos brevemente desde el principio, soy cubano nacido en una familia humilde donde solamente era mi madre para todas las cosas, a los 2 meses de nacido, mi abuela por cuestiones de desacuerdo, bota a mi madre junto conmigo y mi hermana. 隆Y no, no es literal, fue para la calle con ropa todo!
Cosas de la vida, mi madre tuvo la suerte de encontrarse en medio del parque horas despues desesperada, con un hombre que desde hacia a帽os la queria y esa fue la salida, nos dieron cobija en ese hogar y hasta el d铆a de hoy a pesar de haber fallecido, ese hombre es como nuestro padre.
Con el paso de los a帽os nuestra realidad no avanzaba mas alla de la miseria, mi madre vendia su cuerpo para darnos de comer, cosa que me entero ya de mayor, y aquel que fue como nuestro padre luchaba para llevar el pan a la casa, pero no era suficiente. Por esta raz贸n, desde peque帽o tuve como principal proposito el volverme alguien importante mediante mis estudios y esfuerzos para ayudar a mi familia.
Con tan solo 8-9 a帽os debia encargarme en la casa de ayudar a mi hermana, los estudios siempre fueron mi fuerte, era bueno en casi todas las materias menos en matematicas y terminaba con muy buenas notas. Con el paso de los a帽os me inclino por la especialidad de informatica y con mucho esfuerzo logro obtener una plaza en la universidad pedag贸gica 篓Hector Pineda Saldivar篓 en el turno de la tardenoche y al mismo tiempo trabajaba como profesor y administrador de redes en un Centro Tecnologico de Agronomia y Veterinaria.
Fueron a帽os de duro esfuerzo y superaci贸n, pero siempre con la esperanza de lograr obtener nuevas oportunidades con ese titulo, lleno de sue帽os de mejorar nuestro hogar, poder comprar ropa nueva y alejarme de las preocupaciones de que plato poner sobre la mesa.
馃槥Realidad por encima de las expectativas resumido
Para dar pie al porque de mis decepciones resumire mi realidad hasta este momento sin exageraci贸n alguna.
La pobreza dentro de la casa a pesar de lograr altos estudios jamas a dejado de formar parte de mi vida, lo dije una vez, es como una enfermedad pegada a uno de por vida.
Mi madre jamas logro superarse, luego de morir el hombre que nos ayudo, nos quedamos con la casa, pero en muy malas condiciones, ella hoy en dia a pesar de sus 63 a帽os machucados sigue trabajando para poder sobrevivir.
Hoy al menos he podido crear una familia, pero sigo en las mismas, vivo con mi esposa en su casa que tiene de igual forma una familia con los mismos problemas de pobreza y a su vez, con mi misero salario debo lograr poner un plato en la mesa de esa casa y en la de mi madre.
La inflaci贸n en cuba cada vez va peor y ya no se vive, se sobrevive, a pesar de hacer algunos trabajitos cuando termino de trabajar para lograr obtener algo extra, a pesar de esforzarme y tener 2 trabajos, no logro salir de mi triste realidad.
馃槪Todo esto me lleva a la decepcion. 驴Sera de m铆 o de la vida?
Logicamente he tratado de abrebiar todo el transcurso de mi vida, pero el objetivo de esta publicaci贸n en llevarte a las razones de mi decepcion, de ese sentimiento que me remuerde por dentro cada dia.
Si me preguntas ahora mismo si todo ha sido tristeza en mi vida, te responderia con sinceridad que no, han habido momentos increibles y de hecho, cosas que nunca pense lograr. Ahora, si me preguntas si sigo fustrado y decepcionado, te responderia sin dudarlo que si, no se si es conmigo mismo por no ser capaz de lograr salir adelante sin preocupaciones, no se si es con la propia vida, que me mantiene a pesar de mis esfuerzos en la misma miseria.
Me siento mal, de por si en medio de estas lineas me encuentro estresado pensando que se va a comer hoy en casa, porque le frio esta vacio, y tengo dinero incluso, acabe de cobrar mi salario, pero no alcanza, no da para comer y comprar los productos basicos de mi ni帽a de menos de 2 meses. Esto me lleva a sentirme derrotado y decepcionado conmigo mismo.
A raiz del nacimiento de mi hija, tome la decicion de tener 2 trabajos, es duro poque es muy agotardor, me dio alegria cuando obtuve una plaza en una de las mejores fabricas de chocolate en cuba como informatico, fue increible, pero decepcionante al ver que no resuelve mi problema.
Me decepciona la vida que tengo, me decepciona mi realidad, esa es la triste verdad.
馃檭Como superas esa decepci贸n
La decepci贸n, no la supero, tengo dias positivos, dias que rio con alegria y disfruto a mi familia, dias en los que abrazo a mi madre y le digo que estoy buscando alternativas, que todo estara bien, dias en los que le pido a Dios con fe y confio en que tendre respuesta a mis plegarias.
Junto a mi peque帽a
Junto a mi amada esposa
La decepcion esta ahi, latente... se escucha bajito en mi mente, me consulta todos los dias y me recuerda que mis enfuerzos han sido en vano.
Un placer compartir con ustedes un poco de mi realidad. Un abrazo y muchas bendiciones. Les dejo mis enlaces por si quieren saber un poco sobre mi.