I cherish moments like this where you can feel the shift you have been working on finally happening inside you. The displacements, decentering, the wriggling and stretching as items are being moved around in your higher chambers. You know it is real because it is not like one of those moments where you lie to yourself or try to trick your mind as if there is anyone in this world who knows you better than your inner.
I have been manifesting a certain state of mind, a feeling of satisfaction, gratitude, and equanimity. I was suffering an unprecedented dissonance and after many uncomfortable moments of confrontation, I was able to trace this problem to my nervous system. Nothing compares to knowing the origin of your problem. That is an intentional step towards healing.
It takes a lot to make these diagnosis. Facing that fear, heartbreak, grief, etc; instead of running from, compartmentalizing nd avoiding, you head straight in its direction, look at it closely, get it to know it, and accept it with love. Why love? Because the ugly feelings are still part of our whole, and every part of us deserves love. Only then does healing begin.
Here are a few things a noticed once I began to familiarize with the uncomfortable emotions:
- They began to feel less uncomfortable
- Each visit left me feeling lighter than before
- I stopped responding to triggers and altering my mood
- Calmness, joy, and playfulness towards life because I learned that at the end of the day, it is not even that deep
Right now I feel rich, for lack of a better word. Rich in goodness, rich in love, rich in detachment. I feel elevated, as though I have moved on to a higher consciousness where everything is possible and the spirit operates without rules.
Thank you for stopping by. In my next post, I will share more on the importance of healing our nervous systems.
Photo is an image of me holding some flowers I picked.