Please take a moment. This post will not be long. But it will be worth the read. As I waited out shock, disbelief and denial just to make sure I could properly put into words what my heart needs to say about Siam. Who he was as a human being to me and how I came to have the honor of calling him my family. I watched him grow up. Make mistakes. Became a better man. The many stories I could tell you. Narrowed down to a handful is impossible. Siam treated me like his brother and a friend. To know me was to know Siam. I am pretty sure I introduced him to everyone that mattered to me. Because he was always there. Siam was a storyteller. He loved to share his life experiences with others. If I was sad he came and sat with me till I was not. He was always there for us. And I would like to think us for him. He was special. Our Siam. Kindness and goodness beyond measure. I watched him fight to overcome so many battles. With honor. Dignity. He always makes me proud.
Siam was not only my friend but a brother to me. We have known each other now for more than 8years now. We have seen each other grow. I still remember the day you were leaving for turkey with your parents and you asked me what should I bring for you? I should have just requested you not to go. It breaks my heart writing this but you will be missed badly.
Everything that happens isn’t always for good reason. I’ve heard that said to me more than you can imagine. And I’m over here in my mind thinking, wow, okay, so I’m supposed to swallow the fact that my friend Siam lost his life in an earthquake and suffering is for good reason? How does that statement give me peace of mind?
I am unable to believe the universe would take such a kind soul, sit still, sit quiet, and let Siam remind you in some small crazy little way that he is still very much with you. You cant see him. But if you try...I promise you will feel him. Beside you. Hugging you. Telling you he is in a safe happy place and with you always.
I love you Siam. You are our family. You are our friend. And here. You will always
have a home.
Back in college days
When he was a bit chubby haha.
This picture was taken few days back.
Last selfie taken before he left for Turkey.
