One week ago, it occurred to me that I don't know what to celebrate with. Today is the 9th of December, my birthday. My mother gave birth to me on a Saturday of this beautiful season. No wonder I love the weather of this season more, sometimes I wonder maybe it's because I was born in the same season of the year. How I wish humans have the ability to recall memories of when they were newly born, I would have seen a little fair skin tender baby with very soft skin enjoying the good weather of this season back then, I sure don't see myself crying in this season because it's my favorite of all seasons though other seasons are good in order to keep things balanced.
Today I just woke up from my bed, thank God for my phone alarm. It woke me up immediately at 12:00am. I don't usually wake up by midnight like this except on special occasions. This time around I woke up by midnight today and the first and only thing that came to my mind to do was to pray. Truly most times in the night when I'm awake, I find it difficult to rise from my bed because I wouldn't want to engage myself in any activity that will make sleep be far from catching me again. Tonight was no different from other nights except for the fact that I woke up immediately and off my alarm then knelt down and prayed seriously unlike I've ever prayed, I remember thanking God for life and how far he has brought me. Thanking him for everything I've passed through both the ups and downs, it wasn't easy.
Even in the midst of sicknesses and challenges he has shown himself strong in my life. Truly today is supposed to be a day of Thanksgiving for my life because of what I went through this year, it was only God that kept me, no human would have kept me. I was already given up on and nobody was ready to spend anymore money for my medications because it was fruitless but God healed me. I actually spent a lot of money this year, how I wish it was spending feeding, right now I would have been so fat. How I wish it was spent on clothes, I would have updated my wardrobe and have the best sets of clothes in town and if I had invested it in cryptocurrencies which was actually where I've invested all my money before the sudden sickness befall me, I would have been there times richer by now.
I spent almost all my money on drugs when there was no help, though the help was coming at first until everyone lost hope and left me behind to die. Painfully my mother even said it but I won't count it for her, though she said my situation gives her sleepless night but at a time when she was angry she said if it is death, I should die.
I'm not angry towards any member of my family. Today is my Thanksgiving though I will still go for a proper Thanksgiving by next Sunday. Can you imagine when you're waiting for a train or a ride and just one minute you left for something else important, the train or ride has come and gone, you saw it going but have nothing to catch up with anymore. That is my situation. Plans have been made for this year. The internet computer protocol (ICP) was a good coin to buy which I invested all my money on, the other one was chain link (link) and a few other good coins I have in my list. I know when they were so little in value even peanuts could be bought and I bought them plenty. I did my technical analysis and checked other people's predictions, I saw how powerful and how far these coins can go and yet I missed the train with nothing to catch up with it but I'm very happy and I have no regrets.
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Today is my birthday and I'm grateful for life, many weren't sick but they slept and never woke up. Even though I was sick for nearly the whole year, my nights were filled with sleeplessness, fear and terror. God indeed helped me survive. There are many in the hospital whose legs were hanged for months yet they are still in hospital. There are many who have eyes but can't see, some have ears but can't hear. Some even feed through pipes and urinate through pipes and some adult men and women wear diapers because they lose strength to carry their own body to the toilet. I survived today not because I'm any better than anyone in this world but I survived because of God's grace and mercy in my life. Today I celebrate with no cakes. I don't even want to post my pictures on Facebook because I have no new pictures and yet it's still the same old pictures with some old clothes but I just want to use this opportunity to say, thank you Jesus for everything.
Once there is life,
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Thanks for reading and have a beautiful day ahead.