May 21, 2022
Oftentimes, giving and accepting forgiveness seems too hard, so we rather allow time to heal the sadness and pain or any disappointments we caused or received from others. The word "sorry" only has five letters, but it seems tough for us to spit it out wholeheartedly. And I can't deny the fact that I, myself, often find it difficult to accept forgiveness from someone who deeply wounded my feelings.
When my first love cheated on me, we never had a formal closure, nor did he apologize for what he had done. And that caused a deep wound in my heart and even when it healed, the scar remained indelible. Both the person and memories, good and bad, were hidden deep within my mind for centuries. I guess the song "first love never dies" is somewhat true in some cases. The love may have died, but not the person who once received it. Something that will remain in my mind forever.
We certainly have darkness in the past that seems too hard to forget and forgive the person who caused it. In my case, I may have forgotten the sinner, but not the sin even though the time has passed, because those memories remain intact in my mind. And I am certain that you guys can relate to this as well. No matter how hard we try to bury those memories in oblivion, provoking situations will come and they will be dug out again. That makes us hold a grudge against that someone further.
If I have committed a mistake to others, it is sometimes hard to give an apology, but my conscience would eat me inside, especially when I am truly guilty, so a sincere apology will be delivered the next day. But not all the time I could get the reconciliation and forgiveness I am hoping for, and that would create another wound in my heart, mainly if the people involved have a special part in my life.
Meanwhile, regrets always follow when things I wanted don't fall into place or if I missed great opportunities due to my weakness, stubbornness, naiveness, carelessness, or sudden change of decisions. That makes me disappointed of my own self and wish to turn back the hands of time to make things right. However, it is something impossible to happen, so I'll just let bygones be bygones.
I always have this in mind, "let time heal all wounds."
I'll just let those heartaches, regrets, disappointments, grudges, sadness, and indelible bad memories go as time passes by and let the pain of the wound be healed and forgotten at the right time.
Though time does not heal alone because everything remains in our minds over time, it does help fades the feelings of sadness and we eventually move on and get healed inside as time passes by. The wound may leave an indelible scar, but at least, the pain will fade over time.
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