I don't know why I felt like something is squeezing my heart while I'm reading this article. I couldn't imagine how painful it was for you during those times when you lost her by your side. Reading your blog made me realized how lucky I am because I still have my mother besides me and made me feeling guilty during those times that I answered her if we have misunderstanding. Wherever your mom right now I'm sure she's happy watching over you .. God bless you.