That resonates a lot!! (all these struggles, and the realisation that your vehicle is usually a visualisation of your own life, or at least I had to come to that rather confusing revelation)

...sounds like you are ready for a chateau?

I sometimes spend my time at laundry places, without doing laundry. Just charging my battery and talk to random people.

...and that sounds like it is already getting peaceful, or the highest waves have passed:)