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According to Merriam-Webster Dictionary, Betrayal is: : the act of betraying someone or something or the fact of being betrayed : violation of a person's trust or confidence, of a moral standard, etc.
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So basing from this have you ever betrayed someone?
These past days, It felt like I have been betraying someone. I knew that if I keep on doing this and that, I will loose the trust amongst us. And what's sad is that it's myself I am betraying.
Here's the list why:
- I know that eating fast food is not good...I know it yet I continued going to it whenever I am out. I feel like I am now addicted to it and I feel how sad my body is but I still keep on doing it.
2 servings for me 🥲
- Sleeping late. Yes. I have to keep my Job at a very expensive cost- sleep. I haven't been sleeping much these past days just to meet deadlines and now, look at me. I can't sleep 6-8 hours straight. It's either I sleep early and wake up at 1 am or sleep at 12 and wake up at 4am.
Sleepy Selfie. This was taken inside a Jeepney where it's already dark and late- on the way home
- Lack of exercise- just because I couldn't find time to do it.I have started several times but I just couldn't continue. just attempts that lead me to becoming more fat. Being fat is okay...but the risks with it isn't. (Please do include the hassle on changing your wardrobe because your clothes doesn't fit you anymore! It's expensive you know!)
mirror selfie pf an 83kg woman
I have betrayed myself that I am now suffering for what I am doing. An 83 kg. woman with sunken eyes and drowsy most of the times. Right now, I am a mess- really bad mess. I crave for sweet and salty food. Last year, I was diagnosed that I have a fatty liver and also recently diagnosed with Vertigo. These things now bother me because I cannot do what I can do before. My time with my kids is also at risk.
This very moment, I am suffering with dry cough that makes my hard to breathe. I bought over the counter meds just as my husband told me and I am just hoping it will work.
I still hope it's not too late. I hope, I can find the right motivation for me to be back in shape because time is short. I shouldn't make it any shorter. I should build that trust within myself.
Trust that I should always choose the right thing over the other. Trust to prioritize my health before my cravings.
To all who are also going on through this, I hope ya'll find your motivation too. and to those who found 'em, Can you also share it with us? Maybe we can learn a thing or two and apply it to ourselves?
Thank you for taking your time to read how I betrayed myself. I hope you won't. Stay healthy!
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