I just want to dump this heavy feeling inside of me that's been bottling up. Seems I can't keep it hidden anymore. My storage is in its full capacity.
Just a little background. Im a daughter, a wife, a mom, and an employee.
These past days. I've been up till 12 midnight. Been trying my best to do my job... I'm doing Liquidation of Budget and stuffs. When it comes to accounting matters, I really try to stay up late to have a noise-free environment. I am not that good in math. I stare at my Liquidation papers for a very long time before starting my report. It's just that I am so slow when it comes to these things. I can't do it in the afternoon since I have 2 kids (6y.old and 2 y.old) who needs my attention while awake. So from 8:30 to 12, I'm in front of my laptop.
So there, I've been up since Thursday last week...Last Saturday was my commitment to my aunt. We went to the beach for her birthday celebration. Come Sunday, we went to Church.
Those activities drained me physically but what really broke me is that my 2 daughters became sick! My first born had fever and both of them is already coughing.
I took my firstborn for check up last Tuesday and is now scheduled for follow up on Friday. And I'm planning to bring my 2nd born daughter on Sat...
I Know can handle the stress from work but not this. not my two daughters being sick again. 😭.
It drained me emotionally and mentally. I can't help but blame myself for not being able to take care of them. I really really want to resign from work but it's where we get our bread and butter.
So there's nothing I can do but to stay up late again for their Nebulizers and watch them cough at night.
I hope this hardship ends soon. Atleast for my daughter. I hope they can sleep peacefully again. No waking up in the middle of the night...no nebulizers...no medicine.
And that's all. Thanks for reading.
- @mamaAyn
Me and my daughters...before this hardship.
*my 2nd born is still eating when we took the pic. that's why she has something on her mouth ✌️
