This Very Early Morning I was Scrolling through my Hive Blockchain looking for a community where I could express my feelings i had been scrolling for hours until I finally got to see the Emotions and Feelings community.
The question kept pondering in my heart how should I start to express my emotions and talk about these feelings of mine well I say whatever I have in mind.
I have a Question for you all what the difference between Emotions and Feelings I believe there should be a clear difference and also I will be telling you a short story on it i hope I can get good advice on what to do regarding that aspect thank you.
As a guy who is still in his younger age, I have already given up on the word love and locked my heart away from it even if the word was been mentioned I can start an argument about it and sometimes it brings back memories, I know in me one day I will have to settle down with someone married and have kids yes! It is our right and duty except for the person who wants to become a pope well I do not want to be that one guy anyway,
Let's get back to my story due to past heartbreak break I have already given up on relationships, Life has its way of getting at you, up to this moment have been doing my things by being loyal, submissive, and also doing what I feel is good in my way not until a certain one day I met a damsel rather she approached me first ok here is the deal she needed guidance ok I agreed to assist her and before you knew it we got pretty close as friend and getting to know each other.
I will say one truth she is beautiful when I say beautiful she is cute in my expression of defining beauty she has everything a man needs in a woman and at the same time is normal to have a crush on someone, I tried keeping my emotions in check I usually make sure each day we had a conversation not to get attached to her what I mean is not to develop feelings of sort cause truth to be told it hurts whenever heartbreak occurs, it even gets to a certain stage each time I am doing something outside of our conversation her thought always comes to my mind and whenever I engage in a conversation with her I am always tuned with her I mean I enjoyed every minute spent with her online when we get to chat and talk like she has the vibe of what a real woman should be and get to act like but at the same time I tried to keep it on a friend zone level.
I made up my mind long ago I wouldn't approach a lady and tell her how I feel anymore instead I just swallow my pride, and ego and walk away.
This specific night something unusual happened which was she engaging with someone else normally it ain't my concern if she had to engage or not but I won't lie my heart was a bit shaken about it I felt the sensation of jealousy inside me dude wtf I promised myself I was just on a friend zone why should it be my concern on whoever she talked to throughout that night my heart was heavy I couldn't even do a dime thing about it is not like we are dating or sort or I have control over her.
Now am confused about whether my priority of not falling in love has been broken or am I about to walk down the same path that I did the first time and my heart got broken which hurt but she is someone I can't really just ignore whenever she called me or need my guidance.
Just as I have said earlier is what am i to do regarding this constitution I really am afraid of getting entangled with any woman I prefer I just stayed my lane and ignore any lady that comes my way just be myself at least I won't get to experience being broken but the way the roads seems going I might eventually have high heels
over her
All advice would be taking into consideration on what to do or what my next action of approach should be on this
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