This is literally the first time I'm feeling this type of way. I don't even know if this feeling is what people call an heartbreak, am i heartbroken. Honestly, it's like i don't even know how i feel anymore, i am neither happy nor sad. Does that sound normal to you? because it doesn't sound normal to me. I am just very confused at the moment. I have never been like this before, and the funniest thing about this whole feeling is the fact that everything still feels like a dream, even when i clearly know it's not, i just can't help but think back to the day this whole thing happened, i mean the day this whole feeling of being confused and not being confused started. I think i’m still in shock. Although i saw this day coming but i never thought it would be as close as this, it just happened so fast and that too in the oddest way possible...
I haven't been my best self for the last couple of days now, i have been feeling very confused, lost and quite unsure about lots of things this week, and upon that i got one of the craziest message ever, and that too from a very special person of mine. Everything happened in the oddest way possible. Although I acted like i was okay, but the funniest thing right now is that i don't even know if i'm okay, it’s like I’m stuck. I have been doing some strange things lately, and right now i am starting to doubt if I’m okay or not. I have never been in this position before, so i don't know if it's normal or not. Is this how you feel when your heart gets broken and crushed by another?...
What's happening to me? it's been two days since my heart got crushed by another and i don’t even know how I’m feeling. Funny enough i got this message in the oddest hour of the day, after being stood up for a week, but then being stood up for a week literally gave me an hint as to what to expect later. The day came, she kept on beating around the bush, saying all sorts of things to make me feel good when she knew she was going to crush my heart, i don't know why she was doing that though. I was just expecting her to drop the bomb on me, and that's because i was starting to get sick from curiosity and waiting. I have been preparing my mind for this very day for years, but when it eventually happened my body didn't even take it too deep, not knowing my heart already did...
I got that message at around 1:00 am days ago and immediately went to bed with it. At that point, it felt like a huge burden was been lifted off my chest, i slept peacefully that night, after being sleepless for almost a week, but guess what, i woke up feeling confused the next day, and till now i am still very confused. I can't count the number of times i've slide into her dm since everything happened, funny how i'm still worried about someone who crushed my heart...
I saw this coming a long time ago, and i literally have been preparing my mind since then, i have been waiting for the day when it would be my turn to get served. The funniest thing about this whole feeling is that i never expected it to be this way, and the craziest thing is that i don't even know how my body is handling it right now, i look pretty normal right now but deep down it doesn't seem so. One thing i know for a certain is that this feeling won't stop me from updating my blog daily, at the end of the day money must be made, just as my boss 
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