currently at the end of a great cup of coffee and a banana smoothie with heater at my feet and the warmth toasty come up and warming those feet, it's still snowing on the ground here, reflective, bright, high contrast and intensity when i look outside to my poor tiktok screen eyes.
bitcoing is on it's wait to maybe hit that 30k today before a big pull back, maybe we see a massive sell off today and it drops back down to 15/20k but regardless, it's proven itself as a great store of value moving forward, next few years is gonna be insane for grandaddy bitcoin.
can you quite believe it's the 31st of december 2020, it feels like yesterday we were just going into lockdown one, in fact, without the snow it could just be march for all i know, it's been a taxing year on everyone for many reasons, woke a lot of people up to what they wanna do with their lives and how to manifest out of what was probably their mundane crafted original future.
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all i see is opportunity and abundance, maybe that's just my end of year start of new year energy capricorn whays but i'm thankful for the shot in the arm of extra gumption and hope, not that i really lost any hope that much this year, on the whole, it was a mellow experience, lonely at times but having your voice at the other end of the line was magically and while we didn't do much video together this year, we saw each other, daily, in fact i'd say more than most couples.
i know that distance has probably been harder on you than it has been me, i think i've had my head so firmly in the sand about the next 4/5 years than just this one, considering, building, expressing, helping, assisting where i can, trying to keep head above water, blowing air into my daily buoyancy aids and hoping that i can find more wood to keep the raft solid and stable.
we make our own luck, i'm certain of that, each and everyone of us has something to offer and give back to this new world that's forming around us, it's no longer just survival or light against dark it's about going further than that, adopting a new global mantra of the human condition, the desire to be a multi-plant species, out there, looking back, hoping to never abuse a planet in the same way again, hopefully with lessons learned.
i'm thankful for education and solace this year, i'm over the moon at the people i love in my life are healthy and well, i'm sad for those that lost someone over our unpreparedness of a planet rife with a global pandemic, i wish for them all to find peace and evolution in their own lives moving forward, that they have a full life full of experiences and love. everyone has earned that in abundance this year, a year of being made humble by the turmoil forced upon everyone.
tomorrow will be a new day, a friday, the 1st of a month, my capricorn rising month, the month of energy transfer, i remember this time last year feeling exactly the same and then it all cascaded by the end of the month, nearly at WW3, news reporting coming out, hitting hard in march and the rest is history.
but that was last year, and while i don't expect 2021 to suddenly get any better i do feel like the adapting and adoption of supply chains, pipelines, self empowerment, investing in the future you, all these things that we were bombarded with during 2020 as we were locked into the matrix from home, chewing up petabytes of video and getting informed, being woke and aware, watching the world fight against itself, people taking sides, it's been a decade in a year and it tired everyone.
i'm happy in many ways to put it behind me, it was not the "twenty twenty" vision of the 2015 billboards of the future EU money projects that would suddenly get the local economies of towns and cities in the country on track, it just went over like a crappy fart balloon of expression, but we did accelerate medical care, so much that we invested vaccines, that pandemic money will never not be an issue ever again for when we come out of the other side of this -- the world had to pause for a year but it learned a valuable lesson again.
i think we both discovered a lot about ourselves this year, where we fit into the matrix, what kinda nodes we wanna be, how we know what we did or didn't like, how we reacted to the change, determined to keep swimming instead of pitching up a tent and getting apathetic and just shouting white noise into the ether hoping for it to change -- that life is a long term play, it's not just short term moves, it's a series of short form movies building up to an epic fully blown film.
there has been struggle, pain and anxiety, it would be impossible not too but i've eaten that up like a scientist trying to make algae into power of the future, taking a natural occurring material and adapting it to the environment, to learn from thousands of years before it instead of thinking i knew better, chipping away at huge stones on my shoulders, easing myself away from an ancient wall of dust and dna of the lineage that was probably expected of me, to dream impossible things and have overwhelming self belief.
of course in all of this i have missed you being close terribly but with nowhere to go, random airdrops of food delivery and lockdown tiers up the ying yang i believe those stepping stones we put in place this year will benefit us both greatly when we finally get to action them, i would not have wanted you to have gone through some of the changes i had to do myself this year, not being able to be free as a bird and go for swims, coffee, pub trips and food hauls, it wouldn't be the us we are used too, space has been both a blessing and a curse.
made peace many times this year with what life was, is and looked like up until this point and i'm not mad about any of it, it's shaped me to this day at this age to who i am and who i want to be, i've seen chella grow fast, i've seen you evolve self belief and confidence and while i know you have those imposter days like all of us you get up, go again, that's all you can ask for, for the power and the direction to keep on pulling skyward each morning.
phew, ok, i think i've pontificated quite enough eh, with the me me me, i i i and all that, just that's where my coffee mind is this morning on the last day of the year, new years eve, most people heading back into work next week over here finally, first three months of the year to get our heads down and build on the abundance that will be out there in the market place for evolving digital nomads woke and ready for opportunity to present itself.
thankful everyday for you my dear, your spirit, love, guidance, talking me down from the highest steps when it's a bad idea, formulating better plans and reminding me that every time i've ever tried a certain approach it's failed and being kind in doing so. that's rare, like an earth magnet found on ginger island (not happened yet) -- it's the best gift you've ever given me is humility to be exactly who i am while i'll constantly trying to evolve and i love you to the galaxy and beyond for it.
So i'm gonna close up this post, this year here, i'm sure we will be playing again today, i'm hoping that we can maybe celebrate a little bit, boy has got some guinness and some whisky in the cupboard, probably won't get there again, but i'll try, it's gonna be a cold one tonight again so we will see, certainly feel like it's worth waiting up for thou, even thou it's a muted one, even thou it's not the big party aspect that most people do at the new year for me it's the transition energy i'm invested in -- that we all get to cross into the new year together, again.
the blink of a year that was 2020,
now consigned to the fuck that bin,
this is gonna be an even more wild ride,
but here we are, still kicking,
everywhere and nowhere baby!
love you,
mouser xx