you would have been super proud of me today love :)
i woke up around 7am, not much tossing and turning in the night, pretty much a straight shot of plenty of hours, feeling a little achy and withdrawn from the idea of getting up because of cosy times i decided to fling myself forward even thou i had a bit of a pain in my neck.
Before i knew it, clothes were on, jacket wearing, bag enabled boy is out walking, literally twenty minutes after waking up, boy is on a mission to get milk, eggs and whatever else decides to take his fancy, in the end a lucozade sport and cola bottles for later were also additional acquired.
after de-masking, sanitising and looking around the abode, i re-upped the ancient waters and threw out the trash, put the kettle on and made coffee from the new] fresh and cold waters, took a big slug of a cup of that also and sat down at the machine to write you — all before eight fifteen.
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Pretty pumped that i made the most of my day by getting up and getting into it, no rest for the wicked they say and i’m especially the most wicked today that i wanted to make some of this usual down tools day, i wanted to turn my weekend and my time at the machine into something useful, full, packed — worthy of a day that would have been rest.
pumped to get back into the game with you now that we are crushing those numbers and we are only really at 1/4 production, once both cellars and the big shed is pumping out we should be hitting 100k days easy, just shows you, from little acorns you can grow a whole damn forest baby ;)
feeling really strong as of this week, what doesn’t kill you and all that, you have to keep to that mantra in life, it’s all there is right apart from love that’s worth pushing for, i’m very happy to have such a supportive team of people who love me back behind me cheering me on and don’t think i ever take that lightly.
the amount of PR that traf is getting is insane, it just shows you how slow news day things are over on the BBC -- Designer makes £77,000 from iPhone icons in a week - BBC News — he’s been everywhere this week, i guess making lots of money is still very much the goal in most peoples lives. I mean, don’t get me wrong a little cash is nice but i’m not gonna chase it down, let it flow man, it hit the perfect flow state for all the years he put in, the universe rewarded him for patience.
hmm, what else to tell you — i wanna tell you that this week was more difficult than last week because of the triple but actually i don’t think it was, i was way more prepared than usual, especially from my body perspective, switching between analog and digital was easier this week than expected — certainly more of a determination to level up than ever and i’m really treating this three months as a cornerstone, flag in the sand to the year.
think i’ve certainly turned a corner on some old thinking, the old work, pause, recharge has been adapted a little now that my body can do a little more. i know you know this from the way you was last year, how you made changes, how you check in with your body more and say, hey, is this serving me and do i need this to rest for any reason.
i’m also very thankful for my circumstances, very glad that i have the ability to flex into the roll that i have and still have mental processing time afterwards to write you, and still have plans in that equation too ya know? i know everyone is dealing with something, i’ve certainly been dealing with cha-cha-changes but they are feeling great right now.
have to switch the energy up today, want to make some video again, want to start adding pieces to my courses, make new courses, try out my new three day system and see how that’s working out from tomorrow, today is writing and prep for tomorrow, day one, then let’s see if i can crush the next three days in my new plan — if so, that’s really gonna help the creative side of my brain chill down from putting pressure on me.
So weird when you can visualise where you should be, the route it often takes in your mind and how it ends up with eventually, it’s never like you plan it, it’s never the route (rarely) that you wanted to take, we can think well if i have this and that, then i get to the next level or step, not been like that for me recently — it’s like i’d not taken into account the other unlocks of focus and fresh feeling of my body talking to my brain, it’s all been one way, brain wants the body to be better, instead of it actually being that way!
i guess what i’m saying is that i’ve got a good unison of a connection with mind and body right now, instead of being too vocal about what i think i should have, i’m delving into the focus a little more because it has gifts of clarity for me. Once i swim around in there for a while all the other stuff is slowly manifesting anyway, determination is only as good as the focus, put both together and you can leap the fence instead of treacle push through alone on determination. You’ll still get there, but exhausted and unsatisfied.
Ok, think i’m gonna wrap this up here, think i salvage the first part of my morning, i’d normally be just waking up now from putting the world of snooze at 7/7:30 and yet here we are all, all prepared for today and tomorrow, supplies and wrapped up in an infinite pillow. Kinda freaking awesome :)
It’s saturday, give me like six hours to do my sprints, i wanna get in a good position for day one and then we can get back on to virtual farming, film time, or whatever you please, early evening you got me all night baby, let’s keep the rhythm up of the routine, you can fill me in on anything once you’ve done your money things — oh and props on doing all your tech stuff, super pumped you got that together.
had a rad dream about nyc,
i gave you an envelope with forty bucks in for the toll/back/forth,
you came to the gps location, i stood there with a white plastic card and blipped you through the security gate,
you parked in the space, shocked i was there, you looked at me,
said how, when, you have a phone (you exclaimed!)
i said, i’ll explain everything over lunch at momofuku
i grabbed your hand and we walked down the street,
your head full of questions, dying to sit down for dinner,
to hear all my news and whays.
Love,
Mouser x