And we are living in mycelium world,
and I’m a mycelium boy.
I wonder if ant’s see this as the latest development in their neck of the woods, maybe this is the hi-rize for them, maybe in their micro universe this is the upgrade they get in their later years, a shroom with a view you might say? ;)
You’ll probably message me before I get to post this morning, not sure why but the morning just went extremely slow and steady, I took an early morning walk and exercised, racked up some steps and I feel in the mood to do a bunch more this afternoon — while I was taking a leak just I had this sentence (the title) pop into my head.
Been mulling over the notion of ‘resistance’ this morning, it’s been the word struck in my head all morning, mainly from the perspective for where we get to in our own minds and our own efforts, the way we feel like little to no progress and yet elsewhere in other areas of life so much, why don’t we see preparedness as the same as progress? Or at least, we can all feel that we don’t have the parts that fits for the places we THINK we are at or need to be.
So I was thinking about this morning, whenever I feel resistance to either crushing some work, or making some kind of forward motion life progress I’m realising that I end up comfort wrapping that into my patience environment — like it’s gonna come good if I do x, y and z.
Thing is life is so manic that you end up going via z, b, d and then back around to the x starting point again and realise that you’ve been around the block and spinned the wheels a little bit but aside from the rubber on the road of some level of progress we still don’t deal with our own resistance to progressing.
I know this seems abstract, i’m very aware of this. But I was just trying to get to the bottom of why I’m so resistant to jumping in head first on certain things, why does it now have to mean something to me, why does it have to have a story attached to it or a track back, track and trace for me to return too — do we lose a certain amount of bravery when we get older, do we allow that to be a flaw in the older version of ourselves?
When I was in my twenties I never really had any caution, not just from a place of feeling invincible like you have all the infinity stones in place when you know absolutely one thousand percent that you don’t have it all worked out but are in a place of not being patient to find out, you want the world to open it’s data banks and fill your brain with input — we Jonny 5 that shit up like today was the day you just got hit by lighting, time seems so crucial to skill up and equalise to draw inspiration from the world.
Then the knocks come, as they do, the tax, the costs, the social groupings, the ladders of so called success, the class structures, the postcodes, the geographical ordering of your lifes journey based on where you were born, trajectories in life are not equal, like a Petri dish of chaos, same species, different data plan.
Whoa dude.
Like, I know what your saying, it’s too early for this, where is this coming, what bee from the farm got in bizey’s bonnet and where is this heading. You are one eye club and your questioning your own sanity for reading this. I get it, trust me, I’m on both side of the writer and the reader right now.
I guess I’m just having a good unified, well balanced morning, checking in with myself, thinking of your current situation with the business, feeling the deep sigh of the planet after nine months of this pandemic so far and nearing one million people we will never meet, it’s difficult to get excited for the notion of normal ‘progress’ in one’s life in times like this, feels like it’s not something you celebrate, survival right now is more than enough and we should feel blessed by the universe for our entitlement today to be here.
It’s like those restrictive ‘bands’ right you where in training, you add that little bit more pressure, bit more resistance to your exercise, because your training those muscles to deal with harder situations, when we free wheel and undo the clasp of our hand on the brakes of our bike and speed up down the hill we have no patience, we want no resistance between the air and the experience.
What we have is right now, extra pressure or not, some days are gonna feel like a chore and some a breeze, it can feel so much weight of the world on your shoulders and it can bring you down like carrying a backpack of progress but all messy and tangled like a bag of wires for devices we don’t have anymore — we just need to sit it out occasionally and sort them out, throw away and recycle what does not work anymore, recalibrate.
I know it’s not the usual progress report of how my morning or things are going right now but I just wanted you to know that it’s gonna be fine. Because it’s all just a series of indexes and forewords in a million books and stories of experiences we both have not had yet but we already wrote. Patience is key, it’s what makes the moment so power when it comes that tears flow so easily and cement the foundations of the circle economy we so wish to live, from the earth, to the earth and back again ;)
Know you are so loved today, have a wonderful workout this morning, plenty of water, stretches, take strength in the fact that the resistance is only there to train you for bigger challenges down the road. I had fun yesterday, even if it was like six hours virtually crushing it, best times, collaboration with you has always been easy.
We are an effective team.
Mwah x
Humble