I can't remember the series of events that led to us talking to each other all I can recall is that when I first knew him, it was from a distance. I had just recently moved into the lodge he was staying with his friends. The first time I saw him he had his girlfriend around and the girl had some sort of behavior that was odd. He was acting all gentlemanly and I concluded that he was a flirt.
I hadn't been paying attention then because I had a fiancee' but I was struggling with deciding to break away or stay regardless of how much he was hurting me with his actions. I am that girl whose faithfulness to a partner is of a high level. This means you could be standing right next to me all the time and I wouldn't notice you if I am in an existing relationship. Thus, it wasn't new to me that I wasn't paying much attention to that neighbor during this period.
Now, the series of events that led to us talking is still something I don't remember. All I can recall is that he ended up in my room once and we started talking about ourselves and he found out I liked writing. These were the early days when I wasn't so confident about my writing. He tried to be inspirational and came up with ideas like starting a blog. It was a good idea but I had no idea how to start nor did I have the funds. I sincerely didn't know anything about blogging except that people were earning from it.
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It was one of those weeks of getting to know him that I met the young man I dated next after I finally broke up with the guy that kept hurting me. The young man I dated knew about blogging but I had no idea he was that good because I had only known him for a few days and we hadn't started dating yet.
It was my neighbor who mentioned that he knew how to blog, and it was surprising I didn't know. I told him I haven't spoken much with him. Hearing that he knew a lot about blogging made me want to know him more. This means somehow it was my neighbor that instigated my desire to possess him. The reason you already know is that he had something my neighbor said will be good for me if I looked into it... Blogging.
This was how the journey to getting to know this guy began. It happened that same period I told a friend I wanted that seduction book I love so much but couldn't afford it then. This friend bought it for me as a gift and I was really happy. Once I turned the pages of that book I found out the book came at the right time. I needed to take possession of how my relationship turned out instead of leaving it all to fate as I did with the last one. I did practice the things I learned from that book on my blogger friend. Everything that aligned with his personality had been used. And it worked. He fell in love and we started dating. I didn't forget what my intentions were. To learn to blog from him.
It's worthy of note that in the course of reading that book and preparing, my neighbor had told me to my face that the techniques wouldn't work on him. I laughed and we made a bet I would win. It didn't surprise me when he came home one day and disclosed that I won... He had been seduced.
This was too late. I had already gotten deeper into the relationship with my blogger friend whom my neighbor instigated my interest and I couldn't cheat on him. Remember I told you above that I stay faithful in my relationship. So I couldn't give my neighbor, my heart, my attention, nor return the love.
In short, his presence in my life had been one of the reasons my relationship had some rift and distrust. My blogger friend turned boyfriend had become too obsessed with me and he was beginning to feel he will lose me to my neighbor. He had no idea I am as faithful as a dog to his master. His obsession, in reality, had been a result of the series of events and seduction movement I staged as I learned from the book daily. It was too powerful that I began to be afraid of who I became. The book gave me the power to find love and hold unto it for as long as I wanted without my partner ever getting tired.
What I hadn't realized was that my neighbor had been dreaming of a time when he could have the chance to have me all to himself. One night I was on an outing with my blogger friend, this was the time when I hadn't fully agreed to date him yet. While we were having the time of our lives, my neighbor called. He asked about my whereabouts and how long it would take to get home. I told him everything.
When we got home, I met him outside with broken bricks everywhere. It turned out he had a misunderstanding with his roommate and that led to a fight. He genuinely asked if he could spend the night in my apartment since it wasn't safe to sleep with his violent roommate that night. I went inside and talked to my blogger friend about it and I apologized. His apartment was close by, we lived in the same neighborhood. He accepted to go home. While my neighbor spent the night in my apartment till the next morning.
I had no idea he felt bad about being asked to go home. I felt it was safe for my neighbor and my friend could take care of himself. This was the beginning of his mistrust. Every time we had a quarrel he brought it up. And at all times when I mentioned security and safety, he would counter by saying I didn't care if it was safe for him to go home either. We both know it was safe for him to go home, he just didn't have anything else to counter with.
On that journey of trying to learn blogging from him, I found out our values didn't align. He had a political reputation to protect. And I had a sexual presence to build. So we decided to go separate ways. This didn't mean there weren't times we didn't end up in bed with each other because like I told you the seduction process was intense.
This story isn't about my blogger friend. The story around him will take days to finish. As you can see this one is already long. This story is about my neighbor who had been dreaming of owning me. After that incident that led to the majority of our quarrels with my blogger friend, I had to turn my neighbor into an enemy. I seized all forms of communication with him. It still didn't help because for as long as I stayed in that lodge, my blogger friend turned boyfriend will have to always bump into him whenever he visits.
When we decided to go separate ways, my neighbor found his way back into my life. And for him, his dreams were closer than he imagined. You can be sure there was a series of intimacy between us when he returned. The only reason I allowed the intimacy the first time was because he had bragged about not having any sexual urges around just anyone... Thus, apart from seducing him to fall in love, I did want to make sure I beat it on that one too.
The rest of the time was because he was already getting obsessed with me. And he was clean medically, so I said, fuck it, you have nothing to lose. He did know I wasn't returning the love. I was only living in the moment because as of then I still had this misconception that he was a flirt and he lived in the moment too.
The problem is his dreams of fully possessing me seem impossible as the day goes by. For I had no reason other than to have a taste of him. I had no love burning in my heart for him. Neither was I looking for any benefits. It has therefore been impossible to fall in love with him. And I have no idea how to separate him from me. Every time I try it, he keeps telling me, "We are inseparable". I probably need another book on how to separate from the love strings you created because I have tried everything I know.