Is it okay to feel sad when most of people are happy in this Christmas season?
I have been waiting for the whole year and I planned everything to make my dream come true this December.
But everything is failed and ruined again.
I feel so broken this time. Experiencing the same failed for two times is so painful.
Why? Why?
Why did it happen to me?
Why this world just doesn't want to allow me to feel happy?
Failed again, again and again..
I have tried to rise up after the first fall, tried to survive and become okay again.
But this time just got deeper..
More pain, more anger and feel so much bitter..
This heart is feeling so much tired to believe again that everything will be okay.
This heart is too broken to hope again, to expect the good things and at the end will feel disappointed again . .
Is everything gonna be okay?
I don't know
I don't have enough courage to hope again
This is me
I don't want to fake my feeling
Don't want to look happy while I'm so broken inside
I will just take my time to feel sad even in this happy season.