In life, we all have a past or a history that we can’t control—our childhood and part of our adolescence. Some are luckier than others, because there are certainly people who have had a very tough time in life, and dealing with that or growing up too fast is no easy task.
Now, to answer the question:
WOULD YOU LIKE TO GO BACK TO CERTAIN MOMENTS IN YOUR PAST?
The truth is, yes, I’d give myself a pat on the back, a hug, and tell myself that everything will be okay; motherhood was one of the hardest things I’ve ever faced in my life, especially coupled with a breakup, but I don’t want to focus only on the hard parts, because to be honest, I wouldn’t change a thing—because everything, absolutely everything, down to the very last tear, shaped me into the woman I am today.
But beyond all that, I’d go back to those little moments when my daughter was just a baby—to hear her loud, boisterous laughter again, to hold her a little longer, to be more present, even though we never spent a single second apart! At that time, I was going through a terrible bout of postpartum depression, and I feel like there are many things I didn’t enjoy or don’t even remember clearly because my mind was elsewhere, dealing with a flood of thoughts and trying to stay okay.
The only thing that never stops is time, and there are moments from the past that I didn’t fully enjoy even though I lived through them and they’re always there. It’s as if my mind goes blank when I try to remember specific details, so I’m constantly missing a little girl who’s all grown up now—she’s 8 years old today… It comforts me to know that I was there, and to sit down and watch videos, look at photos, and reminisce about her when she was little
I send you all a big hug and the best vibes!