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My friends aren't just a companion, they're my life-changer!
An introverted person like me never expected these things to happen to me. Before I entered college, I never thought that I could be someone who is socially active or even can lead a conversation for hours, break the ice and approach a single person alone. Honestly, I don't know how to deal with people, especially to those whose energy is over the top. Normally, I would just stay silent and let them monopolize the whole conversation because I don't how to break through and open up. Communication and self-esteem has been my problem ever since I was a kid. Maybe because of my upbringing and I blame it all to that every time.
There would be lots of unexpected things, scenarios, and events that would likely to happen overtime. Just like my First Year journey in college for an instance, I never expect any of these things. It started during every introductions, I was surprised to know their impressions of me. Maybe, I'm truly just selling myself short but honestly, I never thought there are people who are inspired of my life stories, and look up to me as their role model in terms of life perspectives and goals. I can barely describe how nice it feels to have someone look up to you as their senior, but it's great. It motivates me more somehow to go beyond my limits and improve myself, so I can make use of my influence to lead them in the brighter side of things.
They learn from me, and I'm also learning from them. They were the ones behind how I overcome some of my fears. If it wasn't for their genuine support, I couldn't still stand in front of people until now, try new things, and be adventurous. It's not just being lucky to find a good group, but a blessing. The ones who will include you even in your absence and accepts you for who you are even if they know your darkest secrets.
To belong in a group where competitions and self interests are put aside, but teamwork, coordination, and friendship prevails. If they thought that I do helped them a lot, then that's nothing from the support and care that I could from them anytime. Those lowest times where I only got the emotional support that I need from them.
I often get this nostalgia whenever I see their photos on my phone. It feels like yesterday since we have meet each other, but we have gone this from building our bond with each other. We might drift apart after we graduated in the future but deep in my heart, I would be forever thankful that I have meet such people in my life. The one who became the pillar of my courage as I explore new things in my college journey.
In our first day of school, I have described myself as an introverted person. Yet now, I don't know anymore. I was surrounded by a group where I forgot who I am before and changed me into a courageous individual. You know that feeling wherein you're not afraid to face things that you're afraid of doing before because you know that someone got your back all the time?
I felt it first in the first ever reporting that I presented during the first semester. Now, I have been teaching in senior high school students and first year college students in different schools with the knowledge of the passion I possessed. How amazing is it to think that it all just happened within a year. I might not have changed overnight, but a year was still fast and brought lots of improvement.
On our second year, maybe I can improve more now on my communication skills and be able to face more fears than last year. One step at a time, take it slow but consistent...
As little as it goes, a progress is a progress!
August 30, 2023
🌸 ayane-chan
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