With my little experiences in life and with all I have been through, the life of dependency is what I do everyday. Wanting to do things I love to do alone and stay alone in the pursuement of life has kept me bond to my parents for total dependence. Being the last born of my parents and growing up with them, getting almost every little thing I asked from them has make life much more easier for me back then.
I remembered whatever I want at a time and if I asked my mother or father that thing will be given to me. Then I never understood how hard and difficult to be when one becomes an adult. I will asked my parents back then I needs boxers, shoes and a football jersey and they will buy it for me within few days and it will makes me so happy and excited. Not to talk about my school fees, my accomodations and feeding and clothing back then my parents do everything for me.
So, growing up I thought it will be easy to become an adult till now that am a adult I understand adulthood is not just about age but is also about responsibility. Adulthood is a stage and a phase of life where people becomes more concern and focusing on you, to see if you could do a thing properly or not on your own. Is a stage whereby nobody will embody or force a decision on you if you don't want it. And whatever the outcome or consequences of what your decision will cause or might have caused, you are responsible for it yourself.
So then, it's now that I started learning new more things about life experiences. I reflected on the things I did and have gotten in the past within a plaster of my fingers from my parents. But now things are different entirely from my idealolgy about being an adult. Now there are things I wished I could do by myself but couldn't do it because of my inability to afford or capacity to do such things. I reflected on the things I did and have gotten in the past within a plaster of my fingers from my parents. But now things are different entirely from my idealolgy about being an adult.
With the little penne I have, a lot of things will be coming on my head and a thought of achieving this or that will runs through my mind. But despite everything I do it seems all efforts are not enough. I tried doing things on my own, thinking as I grown into adulthood I won't need my parents support in everything or I won't need their support much but that's a big lie. It's seems the more I tried to get things done on my own way, the more difficult and tough those things gets. And when I tried all my strength and resources yet couldn't achieve it then I will still run back to my parents for assistance. It seems even as I grew into this adult life I still depends on my parents support to achieve a complete tasks or an assignment. My parents have brought me up, trained and taught me everything I needed to know and all I know now is because of them.
I totally depends on them for provisions, support and contribution to achieve a complete tasks. I cannot do anything reasonable or remarkable without the help and support of my parents. My whole life is a total dependent life on my parents support and contribution.