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Are you close to your ex or not? As for me, we are not close anymore because I was scared that he would still feel that I have feelings for him, or should I say, he would still think that all my actions towards him still have malice because he was still into me until now. But this time, after years of not seeing each other and after he graduated from college, I just want to end this. I mean, I want to grant his request that we go out because he can't stop pestering me and so I agreed because we can also talk about the past and I want to say my feelings for him clearly because I want him to focus on meeting other girls and stop waiting for me because I will never go back to him anymore. I've told him this many times already, but I think I need to tell him again.
So today, we went out to eat some snacks outside. I also invited our high school friend or classmate to be with us. because being with him alone is so awkward for me.
Before we go, I told him that he should fetch our friend first, then me, and they will wait on the outside of our compound because I don't want my family to see him because I have never let my boyfriend or EXs meet my family yet because I want to do that for my future husband ONLY.
I am happy too because my grandma allowed me to go outside even though our night out time starts at 5 in the evening.
We rode his motorcycle to Rosario La Union, and I was furious with him because he thought his life was nine, like a cat, and he was driving so fast! Goodness gracious!
We choose to go outside of our town because this is where we can find a nice place to eat. Actually, there are a lot of nice places too in our nearby area, but we still choose other restaurants because we are fed up with the food here.
When we arrived at our destination, we walked to the left side of the highway because our friend said that there were many milk tea stalls there, but when we arrived at the places, they were all closed.
We intended to go to the 7/11's second floor because there is a milk tea shop there, but they were also closed. That's why we changed our plan and walked to McDonald's to visit our high school classmate who is working there, and I also wanted to visit her to ask when they will be hiring again because I am planning to work. But when we called her, she said that she was going home already and her 10-hour day shift was done.
So we don't have a choice but to walk again and find someplace where we can eat.
By the way, they are just wearing simple shirts and shorts and slippers since this town is just near our town and it's night time already. Meanwhile, I'm also wearing my tie-dye shirts, track pants, and slippers (I'm planning to wear a dress and heels when I have a date with my future boyfriend HAHA).
Anyway, we saw something on the 3rd floor of the building next to the Tricycles (it was Christmas lights). When we read the posters on the first floor, it said that there was a restaurant there. So we decided to just go up there to see if they were still open, and when we saw that they were, we decided to eat there because the view is really nice. Because there are some Christmas lights and because it is spacious, it is ideal for couples' dates at night. Hope all.
This is my ex with our high school friend. They are enjoying the view. Actually,the food at this restaurant is very expensive compared to our milk tea snacks in our town. Meanwhile, I'm just taking some pictures while waiting for our food to be served.
While we are waiting our food, we are just talking about their school life and our other classmates before as well. If how was their life and they said they are finding works now and they asked me before too but i don't share my plans because i am believing of this one belief that when we are talking about plans to other people especially if they know them personally, it will never happen.
Anyway, our friend gives us some privacy to talk to each other.
It was very hard for me to open up about the past. I was sorry that I wouldn't be able to fulfill my promise that I made to him 5 years ago that after he graduated, I would come back to him again. I told him this a lot of times already. I make sure that my words won't hurt him that much. I don't really like him wishing again that I would come back. I have a lot of words for him, and I can see in his eyes that he was broken. I expected that already. However, he still accepted it and I was glad because he understood and I hope he really understands it now.
After all this time, the food is finally here.
It's just a simple fries and cheese burger and milk tea, of course. I want to eat unli wings, but I forgot that there's a birthday party at our uncle's house right now. So I need to eat a little because I am too shy to pass by their house and tell them that I am full already.
After we ate our food, we decided to go home, and it was already 6 o'clock in the evening when I got home here at our house.
Conclusion...
Well, it's not a bad idea to talk and be friends with our exs again, but it depends on the situation. As for me, this ex of mine was very nice and a good boy before, and that's one of the reasons why I broke up with him because he didn't deserve a girl like me. He is good because he was a hard-working man. He really is a loyal one, but I don't see him as my future husband.
I am glad that after years, we are now okay, and I am also glad that he's accepting my feelings for him already and that I just see him as a friend, nothing more. I hope that he will find a girl that will love him forever. Well, for now, he told me that he will focus on his career first before he tries to find a new girl again, but whatever decision he makes, I will support him as a friend.
So this is all for today. This is my first post here in this community, and I hope you enjoy it. Share your thoughts in the comments!
