Self, I know you have a broken family, but I'm so proud of how strong and independent you are. I miss being young. Is that a problem? How can I go out with my cousins to play and to watch volleyball even though I'm too young for that? Playing Chinese garter and playing badminton with my cousins is a very, very memorable thing for me.
I was in grade 1 at that time. My parents fight in front of me, and I am so scared of that. Then, after a vacation in my grade, my parents decided to stop their relationship, so all of my siblings cried to beg them to stay to make our family complete.
When I was in grade 2, my parents didn't think of what happened to the children. If she/he wanted a separation, it was because many had reasons, so my father went to his mum, and then my mother stayed in our home. So even though our parents didn't give us a complete family, my eldest brother gave the love that my parents didn't give. My eldest brother has a job so my brother can buy anything of what we need. My brother stands in for being Mum and Dad. He is also a very, very strong man in my life. He can do everything just to make us feel good and happy.
After 4 years I graduated from elementary school, and the saddest thing was my father had a son with another woman.
I don't know what I did that time. How can I walk with a white toga if my father won't come on my graduation day? I feel bad for him. So my one call away said that I can walk with you on your special day. I'm so happy to hear that, even though our parents didn't, my tita did. My tita said, 'Keep fighting and be brave, Yang, because your dream won't come if your mind is still on your parents. Just focus on your study, and then after that you can buy anything you want, and you can spoil yourself.'
After many years, I finished my senior high school, and then I decided to move to the city to find a job. Then, after 2 weeks, my boss called me to tell me that I was hired, so I'm happy that I can pay my tita back for what she did for us. I can spoil her.
I am very disappointed in my parents because they destroyed my life, not only mine but also all my siblings' lives, and also my parents didn't care for us. That is one reason I can't finish my study because I can't focus. If you have parents that treat you right, please don't get mad at them; just love and create more memories with them.
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