Nonsense. Go to your nearest mental asylum and take your hallucinations with you. Except of course if you can prove your god-thing exists. Even if you could (but you can't, your delusions are in your head only) the question remains why you would worship such a disgusting god. Have you got no backbone and morals, huh? That fictional book character killed innocent children. Such a god deserves to be crapped on, then get a cat to bury him.