If the world you've fought for, looked up to since the beginning doesn't respect you enough to see your value or hear you out, why not hear yourself out and see this as a chance to create the space where you are valued for yourself?
Doing this is hard. Standing on your feet alone in a world where "being humane" seems to be disappearing by each second isn't easy, but that doesn't mean it is not possible. Instead of letting the world who doesn't know your story tell you how to live, why not listen to the voice deep inside you? Say those positive words of "I CAN" to yourself.
We sometimes make this mistake of listening to people who don't know us or letting people's words get to us. I know we are not made of stone or a rock who can't speak or express its feelings. We are humans with tons of cells. We can feel, and that's... that is what makes it hard not to get hurt even when we try not to. That is why we should learn not to dwell on the negative responses we get from people. Instead of moping around because someone belittles us, spat at us, or even sees us as a nonexistent being, it is better to use that word/expression as a strength to be better and be ourselves.
This is why giving the "you" a chance at life is necessary. Just because you made a mistake doesn't mean it is over. Don't push yourself off the cliff because the world says, "There's no way out," push the thoughts of the world out and look within, because their words aren't your truth. It was never yours and never will be.
Though, I am not blind to the reality of life of how we all want a good life. No one aspires to be stagnant in life. We all want something better for ourselves. To be able to get this and that at this age. But let's be realistic, life is not a magic wand that gives us what we ask because we asked. Life will mock us, encourage us, and bring us people who will hurt us and those who would love us. Life is a journey whose route we can never get to explain with its twists and turns.
Therefore, when things don't go your way or things really get bad, then worse for you, don't stop living. Where people don't see value, see value in that. When failure arises in grand style, especially when you are your only option, create another option for yourself. Give yourself a chance to breathe and create room for opportunities when there is none.
Someone recently told me that as humans, we should have at least one or two things that make us happy in life because life will torment us even when we are already bleeding. Also, when we talk about happiness, do not solely put your happiness in money. Money is good, being able to provide for ourselves is a good feeling, traveling is a good feeling, eating what you want when you want is thrilling but do not let that be the only choice for happiness.
I believe life is not all about money, fame, and flexing. Sometimes, all we need is just peace of mind and heart, being loved by the people you love, spending time with your family, and most of all, being healthy.
Therefore, don't be too hard on yourself and give the “you a chance to grow and blossom."
Still yours truly,
Balikis
Thanks for reading.
Peace be unto those who crave it and more to those who chase it away.