You know life doesn't prepare you for so many things and ranking number one on that list is the death of ones parent or parents.
No matter how many times you tell yourself that we shall leave this world, you are still not prepared for the sad reality.
You are not prepared to begin to address your parents in past tense and you most definitely are not prepared to see their pictures as the only thing that remains. Don't get me started with how you slowly move on without them in the picture. Yeah, nothing in this world prepares you for these moments.
Like they say, when life gives you lemons, you make lemonade, right? I hope you also do the same thing with this. I hope you are picking the broken pieces of your life and carving out beautiful things while you push forward. I hope you are not sulking and waiting for a saviour to come save you, I hope you are saving yourself.
I know it can be exhausting navigating life without these people who were supposed to be your sole guidance. I know it gets overwhelming thinking about them and the things you would have done with them. I know how sad it is to be told sorry countless times. I also know how it feels to recount the tragic event over and over again with little details disappearing as the years go by. Yes, I know. If it's any consolation, so many people share in your pain too, you are not alone.
You are not weak for having relapsed once in a while, and you are definitely not broken or damaged. You are only human, capable of feeling these emotions, and you are a wonderful human being, to say the very least.
How many years has it been? One? Two? Five? Ten? Twenty? I want you to remember that you're still standing strong, as opposed to what you thought you would have been on the day of the traumatic event.
Give yourself a pat on the back for making it thus far because no one else would have handled it the way you did, and I am proud of you, scratch that "WE" all are proud of you and we wish your strength do not fail you as you continue this journey called life.
There would be triggers, they would be hurdles, but we trust that you'd wear your brave boots and navigate through it all. You didn't make it thus far to give up at the end.
You rock and we are rooting for you!!😊😊
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