Today is the first day of school after the Eid-Al-Fitr holiday. Since my mom was not in town, I have to send my son to the school by myself. Its been awhile I haven't drive a car and its a manual gear car not an automatic car. But Im not gonna write about my driving lesson here. Its all about the steering wheel of the car. Now I know why my mom keep on cursing everytime she drive the car.
I tried to put myself as the steering wheel of the car. I used to be disappointed by someone who I considered a savior for me. After I assumed that he wouldn’t hurt me like my exes did, apparently he hurt me more than them. The steering wheel of this car used to be torn and damaged, but the one who came and replaced the new one seems to replaced something worse than before. For me, it is better not to have to replace it with a new steering wheel cover if I know this is the result. This is also the similarity of my life story. I mistakenly looked for a replacement. Which I got so bad that it was torn and crushed like the steering wheel of this car.
I have no regrets, but I know that I disappoint my mom in ways by letting her met and lived with this person. She will always swear every time she drive this car, how stupid and ugly the steering wheel look like after being replaced. Damaged has been done,we just have to move forward. I can replace a new one myself without anyone's help. I just need to find the right one instead. I know that if I replace the cover steering wheel myself, it is likely that the result are 10 times more nicer than this. I can guarantee that! It will be more tidy and not so careless as if there is no art at all. Just look at the real photo before I edited it.
In conclusion, I imagine myself as the steering wheel of this car because no matter how bad my past is, it is better for me to change it myself without the help of others because it will certainly be as bad as the steering wheel of the car shown in this picture. That was my situation before and thats my past now. It's okay, I'll replace it with a new one. That was my intention and I knew I would do better than before.
I would be a better and wiser person by judging another person character. I won't find an easy replacement as I know its not easy and I don't want to let another person ruin me just like how he ruined the steering wheel cover.
He might already find a replacement which I can guarantee that, but Im not rushing. Im not that easy to fall back to anybody. Now I know the value of myself and my honesty and trust are not to be given easily. I won't fill up my heart because I'm lonely or alone and I won't play with other persons feeling if I can't commit to them. No anymore.
If I want a new steering wheel cover, it would be a new one and not as ruined and damaged as the photo above which makes me as a driver in so much hassle by turning and holding it. Its sticky with the black tape coming out from the edge. Buying a new one and changing the exact brand will cost me. But I need to find the exact size to fix it and not just simply buy it from a store. It will take time for me, but I know its worth the wait. Why rushing ? Even a broken heart take times to heal.
That's my story about the steering wheel. It resemble the man that I used to meet. I wish to meet a man that can fix thing,its gonna be a bonus. Not those who knows how to win a mobile games but can't change a steering wheel cover. A man that can bring me to a better path and will never give up. A man that doesn't talk bad about their own families and friends is an A+. A man that respect other religion and not a racist, is human. My requirement for another replacement might be rare, but I know somewhere, somehow, I will find one and he will not gonna ruin my steering wheel and my steering wheel cover.