I started the year with a failing business and less than $200 to my name. It was really a dark time for me and making the decision to stop my ride-sharing business to return to Hive writing put me in an even darker place because despite my business putting me deep into debt, I was still earning a lot more than I did from writing content on Hive and somehow I felt if I were a little patient I would eventually become profitable. However, the business was not only affecting my finances but also my health and relationships, so I had to let it go.
It's been almost 8 months since I stopped ride-sharing and I would say that I am in a more secure financial and emotional position than I could have ever imagined some months back. My leap of faith from a place of security to a place of uncertainty did not end me and thinking about it this morning, I have every reason to be grateful to God because everything worked out right and it is something worth holding on to while moving onto this next phase of my life.
In about a month I will be getting married to the love of my life. To be honest this decision was a bit rushed but I am happy and confident with my decision to do life with this amazing woman I have known for the last decade. It is the best decision I have made this year and who would have thought that a year that started on a bad note would be ending in a blissful way.
While I am making plans for an amazing life with my future partner, I am revisited by the familiar feeling of uncertainty. There is so much we need to achieve, aside from our wedding, in just a short time with limited resources and it seems like a mission impossible. I am up most nights thinking and permutating, trying to figure out the best strategies for us but then I had an epiphany this morning which I believe is a byproduct of the sermon I heard last week.
The sermon was centered around trusting God rather than our means, and I believe this to be true. There have been so many instances in my life where I have achieved the impossible--things I did not have the means to achieve. However, something happens while in the process of planning that creates an opportunity for me to achieve the said thing I wanted, and I trust this to be one of God's amazing ways of manifesting in my life.
I am reassured and confident in God's will and ways to align the hearts of men in my favour. So worrying is just me putting the cart (which in this case represents people) before the horse (God). I believe if things don't pan out right and certain doors are closed there will be a new and better opportunity that takes me to even greater heights. So I am holding on to the thing that matters.