I was never good with change because once I loved you, I never wanted to let you go. I promised to love you forever. I made a vow to myself to never let someone down or feel without. I know what it's like to lose love, so once I discovered something that awakened my soul and not just opened my heart, I refused to let go because of the fear that it wouldn't be found again.
It was always a battle to let go of anything I was captivated by. That's where I went wrong, when I held everyone to a higher standard, even when they showed me they weren't deserving. I tried giving someone who was only meant to be temporary, a permanent place in my heart. I was always blind when it was time to let go because I feared change.
I knew I should have let go, but after all the sacrifices, I thought holding on meant my love would translate into a healthy connection. I thought my love would be enough to heal the broken parts and save what was left.