How well can I describe how much I missed her?
How can I describe how empty home feels without her?
How well can I write about the vacuum no one could fit in to fill?
I remember that day, clearly ringing in my ears and sounding so loud to me
When those women asked me not to cry too much because it is not a day cry
That for every single thing she would always do before but stands there not been done, I will cry
For every event of my life where she was supposed to sit and she is not there, I will cry.
For every food she loves to prepare and I am preparing them, I will cry...
My mum is the one person I miss so much, so much that I got to know that the saying that pain of losing someone goes off in a matter of months.
It doesn't go off
It doesn't fade
It's just in a corner hiding like a detained innocent person, ready to show face when the gate to the cell is opened and he can show his face to the light that "yes, I'm still in here".
Just like what those people said, my family have had events where I had to represent my mum, but then deep down in my heart, I was hurting and my heart aching cos sincerely no matter how elderly I may seem to be in thinking or handling things, her seat is too big for me to sit on and so her role is so wide for me to take on. The fact the she's to be called and having a minute silence is the next thing to do breaks me.
For every morning that I wake up when the cloud is so clear before saying my prayers, I Miss Her.
For every moment I'm done saying my prayers and everywhere seem quiet with no voice of her prayers coming after while caressing my head, I Miss Her.
For nights she wakes up to pray, mentioning every of her child's name and what she wants for them, laying hands on anyone who is around among us, I Miss Her.
For every morning, afternoon and night I get to spend each day without her name popping up as Incoming call to ask about my day, if I've eaten, what I ate and how dinner is gonna be, I MISS HER.
I'll be dropping my 🖊️ here on the Hive Student Connect prompt
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