To whoever lives without dreams, surely lives a life without burden, this has always be my thought.
I often take time in any relating post to describe the nature of my mind but in all, I never fail to mention the fact that I'm a dreamer, I have always been. Which is one thing I consider a privilege till it wasn't, you see when I say dreams, I'm talking about the things you crave while you are awake. The beauty of dreams is having whatever it takes to make it a reality but the longer it takes for it to be realised, it slowly becomes a burden, something that reminds you of the things you failed at.
As if that isn't burdensome enough, I have always been the type that, whenever I believe in something I don't let go of it. No matter how much it hurts, I keep moving. As admirable as this might sound, it also comes with its own consequences. When a person keeps dwelling and cling to an unrealised dream, over time it fills the mind with anguish and bitterness, sniffing out any form of hope and positivity. All that will be left is insane drive similar to obsession and abundance of energy enough to drives a person crazy.
I have had something I haven't been able to achieve for years now, it is so huge that it feels like it might take a lifetime to get it done, a fully registered self sufficient livestock farm with natural animal feed production. I broke it down into little achievable goals and every single day I get closer to it but then, the closer I get - the more it feels like I still have so much to do. It might look like I have come so far but why does the end line seems so far away. Every single moment I find myself reviewing things to be done, setting new goals to be achieved.
Everyone keep saying, you might end up drowning yourself if you keep aiming at this dream of yours, which is something I'm quite aware of. I myself once wrote a post on it and titled it "A billion dollars dream" which means I'm quite aware of how difficult it is to get it done, I'm never in deny of my own weakness but all I could say to these people is, "this is all I can see when I dream and if I can't dream, what else can I do? It suddenly feels like something I can seem to turn away from.
So, if there is actually a possibility of wish coming true this Christmas, I wouldn't ask for much, nothing extravagant. Just to be privileged to see my dreams come true in my lifetime, no matter how long it takes. As humans, when we chase after things we tend to forget that we are running out of time and time is one element I'm conscious of. I know asking for my dream to come true right away is almost possible, I don't engage in mind fantasy but as long I can realise it in my lifetime, I'm satisfied.
This write-up was inspired by weekly prompt "A Christmas wish" in hive student connect community.
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