Hello my wonderful friends of Hive, welcome to my blog.
After seeing the prompt for the week I could not help but smiled at me because I know I am a victim of this, I have lied to myself a lot of times and I keep wondering if there is anyone who has not done that before. Most times we might not break out from what we said intentionally but at times life happens and that is a constant factor.
The first lie I told myself was that I would finish my tertiary education in 2028. I had already planned out my life, my age and what I want to do but like I said earlier, life would always happen and that is out of our control. I wrote my JAMB 2022, the result came out and I passed, normally admission was supposed to start immediately and I would have resumed school as at October or September that year but guess what? It never happened, the admission process was all so slow.
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I was finally offered admission but we took time to resume and there had to merge us with the set of students that wrote JAMB 2023 so one year was already gone just like that. Currently I am in 300 level but I have already spent 4 years in school, in my admission letter, medicine and surgery was supposed to span for 6 years but now I realized that we were deceived, it never happens for 6years, 400 level alone is about 16 months, 500 level is 18 months and 600 level is 15 months.
So currently I am cooked because all I had told myself, all I had plan was all a lie and no wonder in economics I was taught that it was right if we say “all things being equal” which means things might not always go as planned.
Another lie I told myself was that I would always read my note of all what was taught for the day and for each courses, hmmm! I started oo but as the semester went by we kept having 7am to 6pm classes stretch and returning home I would feel so tired so I would just shower, make some food and eat and then I’ll just sleep, the good side is that I would always wake up by 2 or 3am but I wouldn’t still finish reading all what was taught for that day.
That kept repeating gradually and now I have piled up note and materials with research to do, and so it never worked out, I had lied to myself all along, so bad but I have to admit it anyways.
Another lie I told myself was in business, so I learnt this skill on how to make liquid soap and I started making them, I was glad it turned it turned out so well including the profits. So I told myself, “I would make them distribute to shops, restaurants and sell them to my church members too.
I did the whole calculation and I even started planning out what I would do with the profit.
So the first soap I made for sale, one business woman opted to buy everything into her shop to resell it, that was a very better option and that would even save me the stress of walking around looking for whom to sell it to.
So I made and sold them to her to resell, could you imagine that till now I have not gotten even half of the money. She keeps giving one excuses and another.
I got so discouraged and never wanted to even try that again. But it is well, life always happen and that is it, we can’t always control some things and with that we end up lying to ourselves. So I have lied to myself a lot of times, inasmuch as I hate to admit that I am still trying so hard not to lie to me anymore.
