Hello everyone, I hope you are doing well. I have been absent for a while, as I have gone through many circumstances that made me move away from several personal projects. I have started a path of recognition, forgiveness and acceptance. I have been struggling for a year with anxiety and depression, this makes me take and leave activities that I used to enjoy. I have had personal, family and love disappointments which have aggravated the situation.
Sin embargo, y aunque lo parezca, esto no es una justificación de porque he dejado de lado cosas que antes disfrutaba. Ha sido un proceso largo,dias donde pienso que ya todo paso porque me levanto con energía, con optimismo, con ganas de comerme el mundo, de recuperar todpo el tiempo perdido y hay dias donde me es difícil hasta levantarme de la cama, bañarme o simplememte poner el celular a cargar.
However, and although it may seem like it, this is not a justification for why I have given up things I used to enjoy. It has been a long process, days where I think that everything is over because I wake up with energy, with optimism, with the desire to eat the world, to recover all the lost time and there are days where it is difficult for me to even get out of bed, take a bath or simply put the cell phone to charge.
El último año me separé del que fue mi pareja por 6 años y del cual les contare en otra publicación, conseguí un trabajo con mejores condiciones, mejor sueldo y ambiente de trabajo. He conocido personas que se han convertido en ese apoyo necesario cuando la depresión, la ansiedad y las crisis de pánico te atacan. Luché cobtra una terrible infección, la cual nunca manifestó sintomas, pero estuvo presente en mi cuerpo por cinco largos años y que si no hubiese descubierto probablemente hubiese terminado en una de las enfermedades mas dificiles: el cancer.
Last year I separated from my partner for 6 years, which I will tell you about in another post, I got a job with better conditions, better pay and work environment. I have met people who have become that necessary support when depression, anxiety and panic attacks attack you. I fought against a terrible infection, of which I never had any symptoms, but it was present in my body for five long years and if I had not discovered it, it would probably have ended up in one of the most difficult diseases: cancer.
Todos tenemos etapas de nuestras vidas en las que deseamos morir o dejar de sufrir, etapas en las que no estamos preparados por pasar por varios acontecimientos tristes y desagradables, etapas incómodas, desoladoras y donde crees que nadie entiende lo que te pasa. Sin embargo, en todo este tiempo que estuve ausente, sanando muchas situaciones, he comprendido que son esas etapas las que nos ayudan a crecer espiritualmente, a ser mas empáticos, solidarios, a entender que no nos merecemos lo que nos sucede, pero que es necesario para trascender. Cada uno de nosotros vivimos un proceso dentro de nuestros corazones, y aquí no hay niveles, cada proceso es igual de dificil para la persona, aunque para el otro no sea tan grave. Agradezcamos cada oportunidad de mejorar, de crecer, de sentir y de aprender.
We all have stages in our lives in which we wish to die or stop suffering, stages in which we are not prepared for going through several sad and unpleasant events, uncomfortable and desolate stages where you think no one understands what is happening to you. However, in all this time that I was absent, healing many situations, I have understood that these are the stages that help us to grow spiritually, to be more empathetic, supportive and to understand that we do not deserve what happens to us, but it is necessary to transcend. Each one of us lives a process within our hearts, and here there are no levels, each process is equally difficult for the person, even if for the other it is not so serious. Let us be grateful for every opportunity to improve, to grow, to feel and to learn.
¡Chicos tengo demasiadas cosas que contar! Espero que este sea un nuevo inicio, me encanta compartir cada uno de mis procesos, que sean partícipes y poder conectar con Uds. a través de mis historias y mis vivencias, espero que Uds. también puedan contarme las suyas, si se familiriarizan con algunos de los temas que voy a tratar en este espacio. Hablar de lo que nos duele nunca ha sido fácil, pero es sanador, compartir lo que ha hecho que nuestraas vidas hayan sido triste en algun momento es de valientes y nos ayuda a nosotros mismos a superar estas emociones. También ayuda a otros a identificarse, a entender que no estan solos, que somos muchos los que el dolor casi nos mata, pero que en definitiva, no lo hace, PODEMOS RENACER y mas fuertes. Gracias por leer.
Guys, I have so many things to tell you! I hope this is a new beginning, I love to share each of my processes, that you are participants and to be able to connect with you through my stories and my experiences, I hope you can also tell me yours if you are familiar with some of the topics that I will discuss in this space. Talking about what hurts us has never been easy, but it is healing, sharing what has made our lives sad at some point is brave but it also helps us to overcome these emotions. It also helps others to identify themselves, to understand that they are not alone, that there are many of us that pain almost kills us, but that in the end, it does not, we CAN REBORN and be stronger. Thank you for reading.