Throughout my life I have experienced a feeling of loneliness since elementary school I feel totally alone, I did not have many friends and those I had moved away, I grew up with the idea that something was wrong with me, some aspect I do not know, I still have not been able to decipher, Maybe the main reason is that I create false ideas of some situation that is happening to me in my mind or as my mom says "fastasma in your head" and is that most of the time I feel that people reject me ignore me and many times it is not just that my anxiety and the problem I have of overthinking even the smallest action makes this happen to me generating depression and endless insecurities.
Hace como 4 meses aproximadamente sufrí un accidente automovilístico dónde me fracturé el peroné el pies izquierdo, recuerdo exactamente cuando el doctor me dijo "vamos a esperar una semana si no veo mejoría tendré que operarte" ,en ese momento mi corazón se paralizó y es que una operación en mi país Venezuela con una situación tan precaria es casi imposible de realizar y es que el costo de dicha operación es realmente alto, pasé los 5 días de espera en mi casa con un yeso en mi pies viendos vídeos de YouTube sobre este tipos de fracturas y de personas comentados sus experiencias con esto (las cuales no es eran las mejores y que no me dejaban esperanza algunas) también busque en internet y los resultados no eran los mejores.Durante esos días me sentía muy angustiada y sumamente sola la única que estaba a mi lado ayudandonme era mi mamá.
About 4 months ago I suffered a car accident where I fractured the fibula in my left foot, I remember exactly when the doctor told me "let's wait a week if I do not see improvement I will have to operate", at that moment my heart stopped and that is that an operation in my country Venezuela with such a precarious situation is almost impossible to perform. At that moment my heart was paralyzed and an operation in my country Venezuela with such a precarious situation is almost impossible to perform and the cost of such an operation is really high, I spent the 5 days of waiting at home with a cast on my feet watching YouTube videos about this type of fractures and people commenting their experiences with this (which is not the best and that did not leave me hope some) also searched the internet and the results were not the best. During those days I felt very anguished and very lonely, the only one who was by my side helping me was my mom.
Después que transcurrieron esos días e tocaba ir nuevamente a la consulta y ¿cuál fue mi sorpresa? me encontraba mejorando ya no tenía que realizarme la operación , wow estaba muy feliz pero al mismo tiempo pensé ¿fue necesario angustiarme en vano por sobrepensar demasiado las cosas ? es que me torture bastante viendo vídeos imaginando cosas que jamás me pasaron, al final todo salió bien y gracias a Dios ya puedo caminar.
After those days passed and it was my turn to go again to the consultation and what was my surprise? I was getting better and I no longer had to have the operation, wow I was very happy but at the same time I thought was it necessary to distress me in vain by overthinking things too much? it is that I torture myself a lot watching videos imagining things that never happened to me, In the end everything went well and thank God I can walk.
Está solo fue una pequeña anedocta del sinnúmero de películas que yo solita me creo en mi mente y como les mencioné anteriormente tengo esa mala costumbre de pensar cosas que no pasan en realidad, esto se refleja en mi cuerpo negativamente ya que en estos episodios de estrés suelo perder hasta 3 kilogramos en una semana.
This was just a small anedocta of the countless movies that I create in my mind and as I mentioned before I have this bad habit of thinking things that do not really happen, this is reflected in my body negatively because in these episodes of stress I usually lose up to 3 kilograms in a week.
Además de estas problemática mayoría del tiempo siento demasiado ansiedad y nervios ,algo que se me ha hecho muy difícil controlar y es cualquier cosa me genera nervios desde hablar en público hasta esperar la nota de algún exámen.Asimismo me sucede con la ansiedad , quiero destacar que los únicos seres que tenemos el poder de controlar nuestra mentes y emociones somos nosotros mismo ,así que trabajemos todos los días en el amor propio cuidando así nuestra salud mental porque recuerden que todo lo que tenemos en el interior lo reflejamos en el exterior.
In addition to these problems most of the time I feel too much anxiety and nerves, something that has become very difficult for me to control and that is anything that makes me nervous, from speaking in public to waiting for the grade of an exam, it also happens to me with anxiety, I want to emphasize that the only beings that have the power to control our minds and emotions are ourselves, so let's work every day in self-love and take care of our mental health because remember that everything we have on the inside we reflect it on the outside.
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