Spent years feeling down about everything. Was told to "men up", was told that "life's a struggle" and lots of other shitty advice. Neither one of them helped me a bit. In the end, what helped me was the sudden realization that "you will never finish all stuff on the to-do list". It's OK to fail, it's OK to f things up. We are, who we are. Had to find it by myself (btw just by incredibly fuc*ing things up, but it turned out to be pretty fine because it moved me to the place where I am right now, being the person I am right now).

Sometimes we are just in a bad place, during a bad time. Things will move on, as you said - we transform. Things change... But it still sucks being in a bad place, during a bad time. It exhausts you.

I hope for you (and everyone in general) to find the right place in your existence soon, or better said - you will find it sooner or later (and I hope it's soon). Fingers crossed for you and as much as I know it doesn't help you anyhow - I know how you feel. You are being listened to, and you are not on your own... ¡Lo siento chica y mucha suerte y fuerza!