Hay momentos en que no tengo fuerzas para seguir avanzando, dudo de mí, lloro, quiero rendirme, porque el camino no es fácil muchas veces, y al mismo tiempo abrazo mis tristezas tan fuertes, tan fuerte para sentirme que estoy viva y presente en este ahora.

En mi diálogo interno sé que mis sueños siguen presentes y que se harán realidad, que no debo hipotecarlo por un futuro que no ha llegado, que si puedo ir hacia adelante y hacia arriba.

Siempre en esa búsqueda pongo en práctica las palabras de mi abuela materna “vive la vida como un carnaval con alegría, baila, canta, sonríe, ama.”

Y cuando llegue la tristeza, Janitze mantén la esperanza y si necesitas ayuda, pídela, es parte de quererte, y así olvido la desesperanza aprendida, a la que no debo permitirle que me controle y me quite la paz.

En estos últimos meses la desesperanza es más frecuente en mi día a día de lo que imagine; en el trabajo diario y constante de ser resiliente y resistente ante las situaciones difíciles (sin los servicios básicos, sin electricidad por horas todos los días, entre otras cosas) mi calidad de vida se ha fracturado.

Sé que existe la fórmula para mejorarla y evitarla cuando llega sin ser invitada, y cuando de manera repetitiva las situaciones difíciles hacen acto de presencia en mi diario vivir (situación salud, económica, financiera, y el nicho vacío).

Muchas veces escribo para ustedes, como una forma de no sentirme sola, para sanar y de alguna manera soltar lo que NO es y vale la felicidad, el reconocer lo que soy y cuánto valgo, sin cosas materiales que presumir.

Mi vida NO ES PERFECTA, pero es la única que tengo, soy lo que vine a ser, No tengo más que amor y bondad en mi corazón y a veces me toman por tonta (o muchas veces...ya no sé)

A veces intento defenderme y no logro el objetivo, lo que origina la desesperanza aprendida, y por más que me esfuerzo no logro solucionar el problema; sin embargo, jamás me resigno, ni me vuelvo apática, ni mucho menos fatalista.

Siempre busco ayuda y apoyo con mi terapeuta, ya antes en otros post les he escrito acerca del trabajo comunitario que desde hace muchos años hago con un equipo multidisciplinario para personas con adicciones, violencia intrafamiliar, abusos, entre otras actividades extracurriculares a mi profesión.

Pues sí; no soy psicólogo, ni psiquiatra aclaro. Soy docente universitario, entre otras cosas y después de haber vivido una experiencia que me asomo la posibilidad de la muerte, me puse a estudiar (como siempre lo hago). Sería un irrespeto a ustedes escribirle sin tener la certeza de lo que les digo.

El Miedo constante ante los acontecimientos me causaron los síntomas ante la desesperanza aprendida que ahora comparto con ustedes.

Pensamientos negativos, derrota momentánea y resignación y a veces difíciles de controlar(a veces pensar no poder hacer nada para cambiar la situación.)

Ansiedad, por la indefensión de lo que no puedo controlar de mi entorno, lo que me mantiene siempre en estado de alerta, prevenida (palpitaciones, sudoraciones, hormigueo en mis manos y en mi boca y lengua).

Bloqueada y literalmente en mute, demasiado pasiva para buscar solución y afrontar el problema, la circunstancia.

Me he sentido inútil por no poder defenderme.

Falta de motivación, en esos momentos pienso que haga lo que haga, las cosas no saldrán bien, no van a cambiar, que este entorno socioeconómico país, además de las fracturas económicas, que son noticias en tendencia mundial y llegan a diario como derroteros.

Gracias a Dios esto ha pasado y cada día aprendo a “desaprender esas creencias irracionales y negativas” que me hacían pensar lo contrario de mí.”

Acá les dejo algunas estrategias que pueden aplicar si les ocurre lo mismo y puedan mejorar la desesperanza aprendida.

There are times when I have no strength to keep moving forward, I doubt myself, I cry, I want to give up, because the road is not easy many times, and at the same time I embrace my sadnesses so strong, so strong to feel that I am alive and present in this now.

In my internal dialogue I know that my dreams are still present and that they will come true, that I should not mortgage it for a future that has not arrived, that I can go forward and upward.

Always in that search I put into practice the words of my maternal grandmother "live life as a carnival with joy, dance, sing, smile, love."

And when sadness comes, Janitze keep hope and if you need help, ask for it, it is part of loving yourself, so I forget the learned hopelessness, which I must not allow to control me and take away my peace.

In these last months hopelessness is more frequent in my day to day life than I imagine; in the daily and constant work of being resilient and resistant to difficult situations (without basic services, without electricity for hours every day, among other things) my quality of life has been fractured.

I know that there is a formula to improve it and avoid it when it arrives uninvited, and when difficult situations repeatedly make an appearance in my daily life (health, economic, financial situation, and the empty niche).

Many times I write for you, as a way to not feel alone, to heal and somehow let go of what happiness is NOT and is worth, to recognize what I am and how much I am worth, without material things to brag about.

My life IS NOT PERFECT, but it is the only one I have, I am what I came to be, I have nothing but love and kindness in my heart and sometimes I am taken for a fool (or many times... I don't know anymore).

Sometimes I try to defend myself and I don't achieve the objective, which originates the learned hopelessness, and no matter how hard I try I can't solve the problem; however, I never resign myself, nor do I become apathetic, much less fatalistic.

I always look for help and support with my therapist, I have written before in other posts about the community work that I have been doing for many years with a multidisciplinary team for people with addictions, domestic violence, abuse, among other extracurricular activities to my profession.

I am not a psychologist, nor a psychiatrist, I clarify. I am a university professor, among other things, and after having lived an experience that brought me close to the possibility of death, I started to study (as I always do). It would be disrespectful to write to you without having the certainty of what I am telling you.

The constant fear before the events caused me the symptoms before the learned hopelessness that I now share with you.

Negative thoughts, momentary defeat and resignation and sometimes difficult to control (sometimes thinking that I cannot do anything to change the situation).

Anxiety, because of the helplessness of what I cannot control in my environment, which keeps me always in a state of alertness, prevented (palpitations, sweating, tingling in my hands and in my mouth and tongue).

Blocked and literally in mute, too passive to look for a solution and face the problem, the circumstance.

I have felt useless for not being able to defend myself.

Lack of motivation, in those moments I think that no matter what I do, things will not go well, they will not change, that this socio-economic environment country, in addition to the economic fractures, which are news in global trend and come daily as defeats.

Thank God this has happened and every day I learn to "unlearn those irrational and negative beliefs" that made me think the opposite of me.

Here I leave you some strategies that you can apply if the same thing happens to you and you can improve the learned hopelessness.

I can replace it, I can't with I can achieve it and I am capable.

I should not look at anything that happens to me with pessimism or on the negative side to what happens in my life.

I train my mind with defense strategies (reading, listening to music, watching movies, giving motivational talks, personal growth and development) that lead me to have more proactive behaviors in the face of personal problems and thus help my loved ones.

Being creative in the face of difficulties, I look for a variety of solutions to the problem, because there is not only one way out, there are many.

To be assertive, I express myself serenely and without offending others with my emotions, I establish limits and give priority to my rights.

I involve my loved ones, I tell them my emotions, I always look for help and support.

In my personal diary I write down my emotions, I name them so that I know what valuable information they are giving me about myself, about what I feel in the face of the difficulty I am facing.

En conclusión, cuando estoy ante una situación, acontecimiento difícil siempre me pregunto.

Today I believe in myself, in my strengths, patience and I do not lose FAITH. I can always do something like developing my persistent personality in the face of crisis.

In my personal growth and development plan I always consider the infinite possibilities I have, not only to overcome, but to grow in every difficulty.

I never tire of improving day by day, I have only one life. I live it the best I can, I surround myself with good people.

I am committed to myself and to my environment, this allows me to find meaning in everything, even in what is adverse to me, what limits me.

Fear is a natural emotion in human beings, so it is always present and drives me to make decisions and not to give up or give up.

If I have, I feel mixed emotions; whatever it is, I look inside me, they are "warning me" something very important and I must pay attention.

But for that, I have to look inside me, to understand what emotion is behind what I feel.

I Live my emotions; it is not wrong to feel anger, pain, sadness; happiness is not permanent, I cannot always be in a state of complete well-being, nor can I be dead of laughter as if nothing happened.

What I feel "is fine" if I know why, it will be much better, because I will know what, and why, it shows me the discomfort, the physical or emotional discomfort I feel, so everything flows better for my daily life.

Everything is as it should be! It's as simple as that. Nothing is perfect in my eyes; nor am I perfect myself.

I have some experiences that put me in the place of DELIVERING to others.

I have nothing to criticize myself I just strive to be a better person and more human every day, so that I don't have time to look at what others do (this has worked for me and that's why I share it); believe me!

I'm still here, writing my stories about life and teaching you from my personal experience! But above all, I'm still here to celebrate life!

After reading my experience with my emotional setbacks, my symptoms, my strategies to learn to unlearn these irrational beliefs and reflections to move forward.