¿no será mejor quedarse callado?
Así fui creciendo y lo que me lastimaba, me molestaba o me hacía sentir mal siempre lo callaba, lo ahogaba y a veces me cerraba tanto que solo en mi cuarto a puerta cerrada lloraba.
Como consecuencia estuve sola por mucho tiempo, lo que me llevó a ser callada ya que cuando exploto me ciego y empiezo a “vomitar todos mis sentimientos” sin importar quien está al frente y por lo general lastimo a quien menos quiero lastimar.
En el liceo, aprendí a hablar un poco más y siempre con cabeza fría, respetando la opinión de la persona contraria, sin pasar por encima de la mia, llegue a la universidad y como no quería seguir sintiéndome sola empecé a darme cuenta de que las cosas no son como mis padres me dijeron, solo hay que saber con quién nos abrimos, conocer muy bien a la persona, analizarla, y ver si vale la pena ser un libro abierto con esa persona o no.
Tengo un sexto sentido cuando las personas tienen mala intención, comencé a abrirme un poco más con ciertas personas que fui conociendo en ese nuevo mundo del estudiante universitario.
A veces tiendo a herir mucho, entonces antes que ser hipócrita de hablar bonito ante una situación molesta prefiero callar, pero resulta que tenía una visión errada, ya que tú puedes expresar tu molestia o tu incomodidad sin tener que herir a la otra persona.
Porque también, cabe destacar que yo también he aprendido a no hablar cuando estoy con los sentimientos más fuertes (amor, tristeza o rabia), prefiero esperar a que todo pase y las aguas se calmen para poder hablar con la mente fría y más clara.
Como en mi presentación lo dije, de vez en cuando este blog será de desahogo, sin miedo a que me juzguen, ya que, ni yo los conozco, ni ustedes me conocen, solo espero que a través de mis experiencias pueda ayudar para que no les pase lo mismo y que el día de mañana seamos mejores personas.
Why open up and talk about things, isn't it better to keep quiet?
In particular, I was never taught to express or talk about what I feel, most of my life I was always told that if I did it was a symbol of weakness and that other people could hurt me.
So I grew up and what hurt me, bothered me and made me feel bad I always kept quiet, and only expelled the frustration when “the glass was full” or just cried, I also learned to speak only in the midst of anger or sadness and that generated that my “friends” were moving away from me, bringing the consequence of being alone for a long time.
As a consequence I was alone for a long time and then I always decided to keep quiet, because when I explode I get blind and start to “vomit all my feelings” no matter who is in front of me, I usually hurt the person I least want to hurt, so for many years I just kept quiet.
In high school, I learned to talk a little more and always with a cool head, and respecting the opinion of the opposite person, I got to college and as I did not want to continue feeling alone I began to realize that things are not as my parents told me, you just have to know with whom we open up, know the person very well and analyze it, at least I am very intuitive in that sense,
I have a sixth sense when people have bad intentions, I began to open up a little more with certain people that I met in this new world of the university student.
Sometimes I tend to hurt a lot, so rather than being hypocritical to speak nicely in an annoying situation I prefer to keep quiet, but it turns out that I had a wrong vision, since you can express your discomfort or your discomfort without having to hurt the other person.
Because also, it is worth noting that I have also learned not to speak when I am with the strongest feelings (love, sadness or anger), I prefer to wait until everything passes and the waters calm down to be able to speak with a cool and clearer mind.
As I said in my presentation, from time to time this blog will be an outlet, without fear of being judged, since neither I know you, nor you know me, I just hope that through my experiences I can help so that the same thing does not happen to you and that tomorrow we will be better people.
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