Life is full of surprises. Sometimes, you feel everything is working properly, but all of a sudden things change abruptly. Today you feel well, tomorrow you are sad, but the important thing is that you have to be able to make the corrections and not to let yourself fall in a state of depression.
When one door close there is another one that you can open when you change attitude, but that new door opens when you allow it through good thoughts, smiles, assuming the responsability of your acts, occupying yourself in new things, serving people is of great help making sure people around you are happy because you have attended their needs.
Going through this cancer has helped me to meditate a lot in the way I have conducted my life and how other people behave before critical situations. It has been more than 15 months since I started to have problems with my health, and until today I haven't been able to entirely solve my problems. I sometimes, think that there is nothing to do, but I strongly shake my head and start fighting again.
I don't stop believing in my mental faculties, and I am decided not to let anyone make me think that all my efforts have been in vain. I keep visiting the doctor to check my health conditions until I will get the means to have the surgery that will eliminate the undesirable tenants that are living in my body. I am sure one day I will get rid of them.
Today my husband and I went to see the doctor with the hope of having good news about my health. It was good to listen him say that I still was in time to have the surgery because the cancer was in the same place, it hasn't move to another part of my body, not yet, but I have to hurry because I don't know if things change. I didn't let those words worry me because I know that the best medicine for the cancer is the good humor. My husband waited for me with his extraordinary patience until the doctor finished checking me up.
I went to ask for the fee of my surgery, and I just couldn't believe the amount of dollars I have to pay for it. I know I don't have the money to pay it, but I found the money from an institution. The problem is that this clinic doesn't give an endorsement of the account they have abroad, and the institution didn't accept the way the clinic wanted to do things. The institution now said that they are going to pay the surgery in Bolivares, and meanwhile time is shortening for me to have the chance of a better quality of life till the clinic and the institution come to an understanding.
My health has deteriorated a bit because of bad treatments, doctors with wrong opinions about my health, the struggle to look for the money to cover the medical needs, the uncertainty of the near future and how to face it sometimes, it makes me think I won't make it, but then I realize that I am living a day at a time and that the most important day and the only that exists, is the one called TODAY.
The images were taken with my Redmi 7
