Cuando sientes que se te cae el mundo, no sabes como respirar y sigues vivo solo porque tienes que estar vivo. Encerrarte en tu burbuja sin querer salir. Deprimirte y creer que los demás son culpables de tu tristeza. Sonreír sin sentirlo. Que te pasen las horas y no te des cuenta que se te fue un día. Todo y mucho más.

¿Te ha pasado? Que no quieres saber de nadie y a la vez quieres estar rodeados de todos, secar lágrimas que no sabes por qué brotan de tus ojos, pasar la noche en vela viendo el techo, que te duela el cuerpo por pasar tanto tiempo en cama. Dolor en el pecho sintiendo que se te rompe el corazón.

Ansiedad de querer que te pasen cosas sin siquiera dar de tu parte, o sentir que vas volando, que ahora sí, celebrar tus triunfos y golpearte con una pared. Conseguir lo que tanto quieres y no saber sacarle provecho. Volverte a encerrar porque no lograste lo que querias lograr.

Conseguir eso que tanto deseas y huir porque estas cómodo con tu zona de confort, hacer daño sin querer por egoismo emocional, volverte a encerrar porque sabes que hiciste mal, volver a hacer daño porque no sabes de límites.

Escuchar música triste cuando tu ánimo está alto, sólo por querer sentir melancolía, aceptar que no es ahí dónde debes estar y querer seguir ahí por terquedad. No tener límites con actitudes negativas, hacerte daño. Volver a encerrarte.

Despedirte mil veces de la misma persona y volver a saludar. Falta de dignidad para algunas personas, hacerse respetar para otras personas. Muchas veces dejando a un lado a las buenas intenciones. Admirar al abusador. Excusar al abusador.

Querer salir del encierro con mal humor y antipatías, conseguir amor en el camino no correspondido, entrar en el hueco porque no obtienes lo que quieres. Idealizar personas. Enamorarte de esas ideas. Despecho.

Música suave, depresiva y corta venas para sentir algo, incluso cuando estas contento, buscar sentirse cómodo con la tristeza... Otra vez. Encierro. Llorar. Buscar el camino de la luz. Encontrar la luz. Todo un ciclo.

Un espejo, te ves, te gusta lo que ven tus ojos, subes el ánimo, pintas tu cara, alineas tu cara, te tomas 20 fotos, no te gusta ninguna/te gustan todas. Al menos es un avance. Sonríes. Sales a la calle.

Te llaman antipática por no ser cordial, educado, ¿sabes qué tengo en mi mente? Falta de empatía. Depresión, quizás. ¿No te das cuenta? No, sonríes y no sale tan bonita pero ellos se lo creen. Te encierras con la tecnología, no conversas, no tienes nada que decir, si dices algo es para decir algo antipático, es mejor el silencio.

Nadie sabe porque no lo demuestras, solo te alegra tener seguridad, es todo. Cuando estás seguro, todo es divertido y ameno. Consigamos esa seguridad y todo irá mejor. Sonreír con sentimiento. Ver la luz brillar todos los días. Ser feliz. Amarse.

Algo así es el día a día de las personas y no te das cuenta. Consigue esa empatía que tienes dentro, nunca sabes quién está pasando por algo como lo describo. Piensalo, sientelo.

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English

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What happens in the mind of someone in depression.

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When you feel like the world is falling apart, you don't know how to breathe and you're still alive just because you have to be alive. Lock yourself in your bubble without wanting to get out. Get depressed and believe that others are to blame for your sadness. Smile without feeling it. Let the hours go by and you don't realize that a day has gone by. Everything and much more.

Has it happened to you? That you don't want to hear from anyone and at the same time you want to be surrounded by everyone, dry tears that you don't know why they flow from your eyes, spend the night awake looking at the ceiling, that your body aches from spending so much time in bed. Chest pain feeling like your heart is breaking.

Anxiety of wanting things to happen to you without even giving on your part, or feeling that you are flying, that now yes, celebrating your triumphs and hitting yourself with a wall. Getting what you want so much and not knowing how to take advantage of it. Lock you up again because you didn't achieve what you wanted to achieve.

Get what you want so much and run away because you're comfortable with your comfort zone, unintentionally hurting yourself out of emotional selfishness, locking yourself up again because you know you did wrong, hurting again because you don't know limits.

Listening to sad music when your spirits are high, just because you want to feel melancholy, accept that that's not where you should be and want to stay there out of stubbornness. Not having limits with negative attitudes, hurting yourself. lock you up again.

Say goodbye to the same person a thousand times and say hello again. Lack of dignity for some people, being respected by other people. Many times leaving aside good intentions. Admire the abuser. Excuse the abuser.

Wanting to get out of confinement with a bad mood and antipathies, getting love in the unrequited way, going into the hole because you don't get what you want. Idealize people. Fall in love with those ideas. Spite.

Soft music, depressing and short veins to feel something, even when you're happy, seek to feel comfortable with sadness... Again. Confinement. Mourn. Find the path of light. Find the light. A whole cycle.

A mirror, you see yourself, you like what your eyes see, you cheer up, you paint your face, you align your face, you take 20 photos, you don't like any of them/you like them all. At least it's progress. you smile You go out on the street.

They call you unfriendly for not being cordial, polite, you know what's on my mind? Lack of empathy. Depression, maybe. Can't you tell? No, you smile and it doesn't come out as pretty but they believe it. You lock yourself away with technology, you don't talk, you don't have anything to say, if you say something it's to say something unpleasant, silence is better.

No one knows why you don't show it, you're just glad you're confident, that's all. When you are safe, everything is fun and enjoyable. Let's get that security and everything will be better. Smile with feeling. See the light shine every day. Be happy. To love each other.

Something like this is the day to day of people and you do not realize it. Get that empathy that you have inside, you never know who is going through something like I describe it. Think about it, feel about it.