Hola papa de pequeña te escribí muchas cartas, no te las pude entregar porque te vi pocas veces, incluso en la escuela, con la ayuda de la maestra te hice obsequios para el día del padre que nunca buscaste, supongo que estabas ocupado, pero siempre había algún motivo para volver a verte.

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En la escuela siempre veía, como algunos padres venían a buscar a otros niños y a mí solo me buscaba el transporte escolar, mama tenía que trabajar todo el día y no podía hacerlo, me imagine muchas aventuras contigo, me imagine que íbamos al parque a correr y jugar pelota, me imagine que llegabas de sorpresa el día de mi cumple, me imagine un viaje a la playa contigo, me imagine que me buscabas en la escuela, me imagine muchas cosas bonitas a tu lado.

siempre tenía la esperanza de volver a verte y te pude ver, solo que quizá te idealizaba diferente y no puedo negar que las pocas veces que te vi de pequeña me quedaba un sabor agridulce, me quedaba esa bonita sensación de haberte visto y por otro lado sentía que no podía abrazarte como me lo había imaginado tantas veces en mi cabeza, darte muchos besos y reírnos a carcajada, después de todo no había tanta confianza entre nosotros.

Cuando era pequeña te amaba mucho y muchas veces me preguntaba porque tu no me amabas tanto como yo, a veces me sentía culpable y lo atribuía a mi personalidad, recuerdo que me decía a mí misma, “la próxima vez que lo vea estaré un poco más tranquila, quizá no le gusta que lo abrace tanto o que sea muy parlanchina”, esas próximas veces, nunca llegaban y no puedo negar que me dolía no verte y siempre me preguntaba porque no me buscabas.



Ese amor bonito y puro de niña que sentía por ti, desapareció un poco, solo un poco porque siempre guardaba la esperanza de verte y compartir grandes momentos juntos, empecé a crecer y ya no te recordaba tanto.

Todos esos viajes imaginarios que hice contigo los guardé en una caja y los metí debajo de la cama, ya no me importaba tanto verte de nuevo, logre muchas cosas y no estuviste allí, fracase en muchas otras y tampoco estuviste, en mi cabeza te volviste un desconocido o quizá no... Quizá eso era lo que quería en mi cabeza...

Llegue a la edad adulta y la vida nos reencontraría nuevamente, quizá no de la manera que yo hubiese querido, un día pare a un taxista y resulta que eras tú iba apurada para la universidad ¡y eras tú¡, te quería abrazar, deseaba mucho abrazarte, pero mi orgullo no me dejo, intercambiamos algunas palabras y luego llegue a mi destino, la verdad no quería bajarme y tenía muchas ganas de contarte muchas cosas.



Paso mucho tiempo desde esa última vez que te vi, pasaron muchas cosas en mi vida y finalmente me enteré que ya no estabas y no ibas a estar jamás, me sentí devastada recordé todas esas aventuras que tuvimos juntos en mi imaginación, recordé todas las veces que quizá abrazarte y no pude, recordé todas las veces que quise buscarte y por orgullo no lo hice.

Incluso recordé ese paseo que dimos juntos en el taxi, porque en mi cerebro una vez más armé una historia hermosa contigo, nos reímos y fuimos a comer helado, uno de esos tantos helados que comimos en mi imaginación de niña.

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Hoy te hago esta carta que nunca leerás, pero que necesitaba escribirte, hoy te expreso tantos sentimientos que tuve hacia ti de los que jamás sabrás, lamento que nuestra historia fuese esta.

Te quise mucho, aun te quiero y espero algún día superar todo esto. solo necesitaba desahogarme...


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Hi dad when I was little I wrote you many letters, I could not deliver them because I saw you few times, even at school, with the help of the teacher I made you gifts for father's day that you never looked for, I guess you were busy, but there was always some reason to see you again.

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At school I always saw how some parents came to pick up other children and I was only looking for school transportation, mom had to work all day and could not do it, I imagined many adventures with you, I imagined that we went to the park to run and play ball, I imagined that you came as a surprise on my birthday, I imagined a trip to the beach with you, I imagined that you were looking for me at school, I imagined many beautiful things with you.

I always had the hope of seeing you again and I could see you, but maybe I idealized you differently and I can't deny that the few times I saw you as a child I had a bittersweet taste, I had that nice feeling of having seen you and on the other hand I felt that I could not hug you as I had imagined so many times in my head, give you many kisses and laugh out loud, after all there was not so much trust between us.

When I was little I loved you very much and many times I wondered why you didn't love me as much as I did, sometimes I felt guilty and I attributed it to my personality, I remember saying to myself, "the next time I see him I will be a little calmer, maybe he doesn't like that I hug him so much or that I am very talkative", those next times, never came and I can't deny that it hurt me not to see you and I always wondered why you didn't look for me.



That beautiful and pure love I felt for you as a child, disappeared a little, just a little because I always hoped to see you and share great moments together, I started to grow up and I didn't remember you so much.

All those imaginary trips I made with you I kept them in a box and put them under the bed, I no longer cared so much to see you again, I achieved many things and you were not there, I failed in many others and you were not there either, in my head you became a stranger or maybe not... Maybe that's what I wanted in my head....

I reached adulthood and life would meet us again, maybe not in the way I would have wanted, one day I stopped a cab driver and it turned out to be you, I was rushing to the university and it was you, I wanted to hug you, I really wanted to hug you, but my pride did not let me, we exchanged a few words and then I arrived at my destination, I really did not want to get off and I really wanted to tell you a lot of things.



A lot of time passed since that last time I saw you, many things happened in my life and finally, I found out that you were gone and you were never going to be, I felt devastated, I remembered all those adventures we had together in my imagination, I remembered all the times I could have hugged you and I couldn't, I remembered all the times I wanted to look for you and because of pride, I didn't do it.

I even remembered that ride we took together in the cab, because in my brain once again I made up a beautiful story with you, we laughed and went for ice cream, one of those many ice creams we ate in my imagination as a child.

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Today I write you this letter that you will never read, but that I needed to write you, today I express so many feelings that I had towards you that you will never know about, I regret that our story was like this.

I loved you very much, I still love you and I hope someday to overcome all this...


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