Sooo, of recent since like the middle or ending of last year I have been having this feeling of wanting to be popular, famous.
Yes I know it might be a silly thought, but it has heen on my mind for a long time now and it doesn’t seem like a feeling that wants to leave my mind any time soon.
Maybe it’s from all the lifestyles I see of some of these popular stars who when I check their biography they are like either my age or I’m older or not to older than I am.
I see this and just end up going “guy, would it be soo bad to have the kind of life they have”.
Soo I had an uncle who was a movie director and producer(he’s late now though, God rest his soul 🙏🏽🤲🏾), at times I just feel like “what if he had introduced me into the movie industry at an early age like the rest of these famous actors who started early would I have been living that kind of life by now”.
It crosses my mind sometimes though like, what if he had actually brought up the thought to my mum and she turned it down 🤔🤔 oh well who knows.
Soo, as I said at the beginning of this post, around middle to ending of last year, I have been telling my close friends 
I don’t know why I just feel like I want to live that kind of life first and know what it feels like. I feel like if God can make this work for me it would make this year the best one for me
I hope it’s not a wierd thing to want in this life though 🥴🤷🏽♀️