If I did my calculations right, then, after almost twelve days, I'm only making a post today. It should have been for yesterday, but I keep falling into bad habits.
Lately, I've been doing a lot of checks and balancing. I've just even reassessing, planning, strategizing and trying to push myself so that when the year draws to an end, I don't sulk or go into thinking that 'why didn't I do that?,' ' ...if only I had done this, then, I would have achieved something tangible.' It's almost the end of the seventh month anyway and... tsk! I just don't know anymore.
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One thing I'm not oblivious of and would not ignore right now is that I have challenges. There is... -nah, it's more than just one thing - there are things I have to give up and let go of in order to make headway.
If these count/fit well with the prompt, I'll list them in no particular order as procrastination, over-thinking/over-calculating, and finally, laziness(mostly fatigue in my mind... I do hope this makes sense).
You see, I know what I want. Maybe not exactly, but I know what I hope to achieve within these period but I'm either thinking, not of the possibilities of doing and achieving them but of how to start. It's not like I expect anything to be grand or perfect, but I just find myself setting up obstacles, distractions, and other engagements(which shouldn't matter) all in my mind.
It's that or..
I just put things off. For instance, I planned to read a certain course note, draft an article, and do a little home workout, but not one got ticked off the list. I just managed to set one off for twenty minutes later and then twenty minutes later until the day was done, and I could no longer do so. A good deal of this, anyway, is cause I somehow feel a mental exhaustion that translates quickly to a physical one.
These things out of the way, and I should be on a smooth, nice sail to getting things done and hitting the marks. I guess this article should even be a wake-up call to me cause don't we agree that the first step to fixing a problem is identifying the problem? I have identified mine, and I guess that this should be helpful. I'm doing the bits, though. That's if drafting this by 12:51am because i don't want to hit the bed without getting some stuff done, and repeating the draining cycle does count. Time, my time, quality time is really what i should sacrifice to get things done. I know so and that's just it for me.
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