What changes have you experienced in your habits, interests, or lifestyle as you've grown and evolved, and how have these changes impacted your life?.
"Nobody is an island" so they say as so doing it means, no one person can know everything and as such, it means learning is every day of our living life and anyone who is not willing to unlearn, relearn, and learn is shooting himself or herself on their foot because they are heading to their downfall.
If I was asked a few years back if I had learned all there is to life, I would have said I have learned the majority of life hacks, but unfortunately or fortunately, I am realizing now that I have learned the most or the more in the past two recent years of my life making me realize that I am just beginning to learn more about life hacks and human, not just from experience but from study as a result of my discipline in school which is associated with philosophy and psychology.
It's been a rollercoaster, hurting, funny, and painful, but in all, I am realizing that I am letting myself evolve, I am giving room to change, I am adapting, I am letting go and most of all, I am living. It took a lot to let myself go with the flow irrespective of what I felt, it took a lot of courage, to let it die irrespective of the tiny little voice that made it more hurting when one thinks about it and worst of all have no explanation or valid reasons about it.
I have been thinking, since this year, that my habits, interests, or lifestyle as evolving comes with age, I mean I will be turning thirty soon 🎉🥳, and for some weird reason, for someone who has not been big about birthdays and birthdays celebration, I have been thinking about doing a little something to use in remembering the last phase before beginning a new phase, fingers crossed anyway. So I think apart from my funnily exhausting heart-wrenching and terrible experience, which has helped in my lifestyle/habits evolvement, I think my evolving comes with my age. Just a thought though.
All I am aiming for is making my money and enjoying my life however and whichever way I want and with no bad energy or vibes, I am not in this life for competition or in competition with anyone, not interested in making a show or being in the limelight, not interested in showing off, for any reason, so, now once I realize that someone around me is giving that bad energy or vibes, I am willing to shut down or take a walk out of their lives the same way I came. We all don't have to be friends.
Just want to make money, fund my lifestyle, go on solo vacations and also vacation with my inner circle, buy beautiful things, make my family comfortable (mom in particular), eat good and healthy food, take care of my skin, add up where necessary, especially my ass and hips 😆, because that's the only part of my body that I got hope for development,🙈🙊 and enjoy my life with no hitch, no unnecessary stress or headache that can be averted. So, all I am aiming at is securing the bag with the right mindset and right set of people around me with a good head on their shoulder, seeking people with
I don't need big money, I just need the right money in the right proportion, something to make my living comfortable, and you know there is this sweet feeling that comes with spending your hard-earned money on something you want, that sweet feeling that comes with not having to call or wait on someone to get something for you, I don't have a problem with gifts or someone buying something for me but I got a big problem with solely depending on someone. I get sick and angry whenever or on days I am not financially capable of footing bills, even when I know someone can do that for me but my ego is always bruised when I can not do it myself and how I want it to be done.
I recently told myself I am done trying to explain to anyone, I am done going all out for anyone, I am done going out of my way to do things for people I sure as hell, they wouldn't do for me, I am done being walked on, I am done proving myself, I am done stretching for people, I am done inconveniencing myself for anyone because it is not worth it. The worst part is this set of people are those who you know that would not do the same for you even if you were to be in those shoes.
They are free to think or believe whatever they wish, oh, I ain't going to try to explain myself to anyone, because I think I have been doing that for a while, they are free to think whatever they wish about me, they are free to doubt me, it's none of my business. Most people do not just make you see how ungrateful they are as humans, but they make you regret even nursing the idea of inconveniencing yourself for them, and whenever I hate to feel that way.
I mean, I am used to most human being ungrateful but making me regret going all out for someone is the worst feeling for me, and I always hate to feel that way. Last month precisely, an incident happened with a close friend and I had that feeling if I had seen a cane, I am sure I would have flogged myself for even nursing that idea of inconveniencing myself for that friend that particular day because the incident left me hating that compassion side of me, and after that incident I promised myself that I was never going to toil that life again.
In this my new era, I think I am all for the living simple and stress free while I do the needful that concerns my soul and salvation and of course, death and the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ. While I do that, I don't need unnecessary drama and people around me making me question my life, my personality and making me regret every step I take or took with them. It's draining to indulge such persons and life. We all know life is once, and I am planning to live as much as I can until the day I am called home.
So, lately, I am just realizing that I am not big with stress especially stress that has alternatives, specifically one that comes with the marriage celebration. Now, this is the funny thing I am willing to go all out for anything that comes with pay, I do not mind stressing my ass out as long as I am going to get paid at the end of the day, hour, or month, watch me bring out my bulldozer game strength but not willing to go all out or put the same energy for the stress that comes with marriage celebration.
Perhaps if I had the money, would love to hire event planners but since I do not have the money, my thoughts are to make it fast and snappy even before the end of the snap of my finger. I could also attribute this new interest of mine to the fact that I have never been big about getting married, never been my thing, and never had a marriage fantasy has a young girl, but since there is a possibility that I would be inclined to that root soon, I intend to make it as snappy as possible, very stress-free, low budget and smooth.
So, I said " I would love we just go in see my family, and do what needs to be done that involves family items and bride price, get the blessings from family and yeah, I wouldn't mind taking pictures for memory sake, move to the marriage registry unit, do our court marriage, and we call it a day. Oh! I would be doing a little eating gathering that only involves family and close friends perhaps on a weekend, and that would be a week after I have been married. Luckily, my church is in partnership with the court marriage, so our church marriage certificate usually comes with court marriage, so I can pick a normal day, we walk in, sign the marriage and we move out, but there is a clause.
Everyone is complaining about the plan, and how they would give me a helping hand if I agreed to do it the normal way, well, we all know that in Nigeria, the marriage celebration isn't just about the intending couples alone, most times family usually have a say on the celebration and since I am the first daughter and only daughter of my mother, there is a possibility of not just my mother but the new family I am getting into not agreeing to this lifestyle of mine, so maybe, there might be a little twitch but that is if they are willing to do the whole running around while I enjoy my baby girl lifestyle.
This is my entry Hive Naija Weekly Prompt | Edition 93