Hi friends,
I hope everyone's okay. Alright,so I discovered the prompt of the week from a post on here and I couldn't resist the urge to participate in it. It's been almost two decades being alive and I've had my principles,some of my morals and things embedded in me right from when I was young,flipped over in minutes and seconds,be it as a result of a testimony or miracle or whatever my eyes saw that particular moment.
Let's go back to the past when I thought life was like some sort of building block game. Right from start I never assumed it to be easy and just miraculously fall in place for anyone because life wasn't really "IT" for me then. I mean I was struggling a lot with self identity and funny thing is; I still struggle alot with that right now. It's like it's never ending and it is ridiculous. But let's hit pause on that topic first and continue about the past. Alright,so there I was struggling with what exactly I wanted to be when I get older. I went from different careers to different careers. I was shuffling and changing it every two days. From wanting to be an astronaut,a teacher,lawyer,an artist, a dancer, a singer, to aspiring to be an accountant... Let's take a few minutes of silence and ponder a little on what I finally settled on.
Now fast forward to some years later, I'm in high school now and I'm not still a huge fan of the entire 'universe life' thing. I was always told Hardwork is the key to success and Money is the root to all evil,hence Money is not everything. Reminiscing on the first one now. At some point,it worked in my life. I mean, finally I was getting good grades cause I was studying extensively and sacrificing every fun moments for a moment with my books. And then there's the topper in my class,with the highest average score throughout the entire JSS2 class, a friend of mine and he doesn't even bother to open his books till the morning of the exams. Seeing this made me frustrated and had me cancelling the idea of hardwork being the key to success. I realized it's being smart and mixing that with hardwork that's the key to success.
And there was another principle I had flipped so bad,it took me days to conclude on what I was going to follow. "Life is Life". I remember having my whole life planned out at 9. What I'd be,where I'd be,how I'd look like and be. Looking back at it now ,I can't help but laugh so hard,till my cheeks start to ache. How did I go from believing life was a fairytale,one of extreme beauty to seeing life as a matrix. Indeed that's exactly what about 60% of humans are living. I mean, we're born,we learn how to crawl,stand and walk,we eventually start talking,go to school,grow up,go to college, graduate,get a job,work,get a wife or a husband,get married, get kids or not and then what? We just die and that's it. Now,I don't mean this to try and sound unappreciative of the fact that I have life,I was simply just stating what I observed. I wish it could be more though,but due to the intelligence surrounding movies and series and cartoons, I've come to realize the matrix life is easier and safer,haha.
Time Stands Still. When I was younger,it was like I'll never go fast. It was like I'd never grow up because time was so slow! Days took forever to finish and night took almost the same amount of exhaustion to flip into a new day. I can still remember saying, "I wish to be older". If only I could go back in time, I'd give myself the meanest side eyes. One so mean,you can't help but step back a bit and bow your head a little. Being grown up is so confusing. It's like you know what's going on in your life but you don't know what's going on at the same time. I mean I can see it, it's there but I don't know what to do to fix it so I just ignore it and go do something else that's worthwhile or not and that's distracting. It's everything happening at the same time that tends to take away me sometimes. Life is weird, exhausting too.
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Thanks for reading.