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📝 If you could change one thing about your personality, what would it be?
Everyone has a flawed personality, a personality that you really want to change as an individual but you can't change it, you feel really helpless each time you find yourself exhibiting and displaying such personality/trait , this can be referred to as personality flaws and it can happen to anyone, everyone has a personality flaw.
Picture is mine.
Dealing with personality flaws might be a hell of a job , but you have to be really calm with yourself, because you aren't alone, everyone on earth has a personality flaws, the flaws could be our weakness as humans and in most cases our strength too.
In response to this week question; If you could change one thing about your personality, what would it be?
Hmmmmmm, my answer to this question might be surprising.
If I could change anything about my personality is definitely, the habit of always seeing the good in people, even after they hurt, betray and deal with me .I hardly give up on people I love and at the end of the day , I get really hurt.
It's always like a pattern in all my friendships and relationships, I can't give up on people, even when the handwriting is boldly written on the wall , even after several warnings from different people, I still see the light and possibilities of changes.
I will like to share my first experience with a friend, back in secondary school, I had a very close friend, we attended different schools, but she stayed close to my street, I will pass all the shops in my street to make sure I get the goods from her mum's shop, just to make sure I see her and we talk briefly . Her mother's shop was three streets away.
It was like that, although she was really unbothered to see me like I would always want to see her,
She was the kind of girl that always had friends around her, but I was an introvert, always indoor. Errands was the only way to step out of the house after school.
Month to months I will always make sure I see her, most times she doesn't want to talk to me because she had more friends at the shop, I will just get what I was sent and walk out shamefully.
Most times she would ask me to leave my change, that she was hungry and I would do it happily just to please a friend.
One day I stepped out and a lady called me, saying my friend came to buy stuffs from her without paying and she said; my mom sent her, I said I will confirm from my mom, knowing my mom won't try that, when I got home my mom said it wasn't true.
My mom went to the ladies shop and they realized it was a lie, they called but she ran, my mom warned me not to follow her again. Guess what?
The next week, I went to visit her, adviced her and I became friends with her again, my mom wasn't aware, this time, she would come by my window to collect food stuffs and things, and I would give her happily, just to make sure she doesn't lie again.
We were like that until we finished secondary school, she became a big girl and I became the one looking for her attention.
Until, I fell seriously sick, and was admitted at a hospital close to my house, when I woke up, my sister told me she never visited and she was aware that I was admitted at the hospital.
Funny enough, I tried reaching out to her when I came, but she was always seeing me as kid, like she would always say.
The last thing she did to me that really got to me was taking a debt in my name , traveled out of the city this time. I cleared it and never told Mom.
This was something I would have avoided, because there were signs , but I didn't because I loved her.
I have experienced this so much , and it hurts alot, it makes me scared of trying to know people, so I don't care too much.
This is my personality flaws and I'm still trying to deal with it, If I can change it and be a heartless bitch 🤣, I might be happy, but it's unfortunate that I can't change it, I just have to be careful and selective of the people I love.
Thanks for reading.