It is the 31st day of the year today, and nothing has pleased my heart more than waking up in good health, with a sound mind, and being able to give my body the rest it truly deserves after going through the hurdles of the 2025th year. Even more, I am grateful that this is one of those days where I get to reflect on how my year went, highlighting the good, the ugly, and everything in between.
Honestly, it has been quite a year for me. Looking back, I can smile and confidently say that this year impacted my life positively. I remember starting the year with very small goals because the previous years had been tough for me. I decided to give myself a break from setting big expectations. I wanted to unclog my mind and give myself grace to simply exist. More than anything, I wanted this year to be one where my mind settled like calm waters and my heart finally healed.
Fortunately, the year unfolded just as I envisioned. Within these past twelve months, I learned something important about myself. I used to believe there were certain things I could never forgive, depending on how deeply they hurt me. But this year taught me that the heart has its reasons, and sometimes we have no choice but to follow where it leads. I'm sharing this because I spent the past few years trying to shut out people who hurt me. I believed that hatred towards them would help me heal. But each year proved me wrong. I remained stuck, unhealed, and still broken.
So this year, I stopped trying to fight for my heart to hate those people. I let go of the hurt. I freed my mind and allowed my heart to do what it needed to do. I chose peace, and when this year came with an opportunity to retaliate and hurt those who made my heart bleed, I chose kindness instead. Today, I see a healed version of myself. I am less anxious about the people I may meet in the future, and I no longer dwell so much on the past.
This journey of healing made me realize that no matter how strong and strict I am, my heart is still fragile and kindness matters much to me than anything else. Now, I understand how hard it is for me to develop hatred for people I once loved and cared about, so I'm never going to try that path again. The boundaries between such people and myself may exist, but the love I have towards them will always remain somewhere in my heart.
This year also introduced me to a new passion, which is ART. I found myself replicating paintings I saw online, and they turned out really nice. Each time I made a sketch and painted with my coloured pencils, I noticed how calm my mind became. It felt therapeutic. Even on my stressful days, creating this simple kind of art brought me peace. Next year, I plan to explore this path fully and see where it leads me. I want to experiment with different types of pencils, paints, and sketches. I am also making plans to connect physically with my online friends who share this same interest, so we can grow together.
I know the coming year holds so much more for me, and I am willing to remain patient to watch it unfold. Most importantly, I truly hope this year ends with clarity, so I can finally sit with myself, write down my other goals, and plan how to bring them to life. If you've read to this point, I wish you a happy new year in advance. May all your honest dreams come true.🥰
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