That said, a fall from grass to grace can be the most depressing thing ever. My sister used to say it's better to stay on the ground than to fly by eye, just to fall back to the ground. She said the physical and mental pain isn't worth it, although my mom made sure to get rid of that mindset in any of us, and she said it was because that mindset would never let one progress in life. “Love is full of ups and downs, but never let it keep you down,” my mom says.
The last time I experienced such, it was very overwhelming. It all came at once on the same day.
The phone I am using right now isn't that big, but it is bigger than me because I can't take out the money I have invested to spend on a phone like this.
When my brother wanted to get me the phone, I can remember my other brother asking me what I was going to use it for and advising me to stay with my cheap phone, but no, who doesn't do good things? Especially free ones.
Then, one fateful day, I thought back and said Even if for just a moment, 'if I had known.”
That day started well for me. I was excited because the first thing I did on waking up was make my second deposit into my investment account. That same morning, we had an impromptu test that ended with me mixing up the little I knew because of the sudden tension. And the following classes were just straight up stress, no comprehension.
Then, after the horrible day, I went back to my hostel, and my phone screen cracked more stupidly than ever. I kept the phone in bed and was tired and stressed forgot it was there. I couldn't wait to lie down and decided to do a quick bed dust by flipping one side of my bed sheet. Just one flip, and I heard my phone hit the ground.
I didn't shout or panic, I quietly picked up my phone as my eyes turned red and welled up. There was a black spot in the middle of the crack.
My thoughts were “my life has finished, what kind of temptation is this? After everything I won't only need to withdraw the little I just invested, but I will need to take some from my previous capital,”
It felt like all my struggles and progress were erased in seconds.
That same night, as usual, my brother called to check up on me, the one who advised me not to take the phone. He noticed something was wrong, and at first, I hesitated to tell him because he was the type who would, instead of bringing a solution would rub “I told you" in your face and I wasn't sure I could take that in that mental state.
But surprisingly, I told him, and he just laughed at me and solved my problem in an instant. He gave me his friend's number for the repair, told me the confirmed price and sent me the complete money with a little on top for whatever I felt like eating that night, teasing me with “in your life after God is food," lol, that's correct sometimes.
As I ate the assortment I bought that night, it felt like all the bad memories of my day were wiped away. Like I wasn't about to fall into depression.
One thing I have learned and told people is this: no matter how small the fall, maybe don't let anyone tell you the pain you feel is just dramatic. Just don't let the pain keep you down.