Some of you might know I'm currently living in a forest of southern Chile, specifically in a shelter I've been building out of local natural material, as well as recycled stuff I find lying around or receive as donations.
Some old pics of the shelter, it's more advanced now but days are so dark that pictures aren't very good
I have to brace myself as winter is coming. Days are very short and they feel even shorter in the forest as there is less availability of sunlight. After some big struggles I've managed to get decently on my feet and recover a positive outlook on Life.
The image on the top left and the top right are actually taken from the same place, showing how much change has ocurred.
What's that? You want to see some earlier pictures? I was saving them for a compilation post but whatever, here they go:
During those days of darkness when the rain wouldn't stop and I felt as there was a faint amount of energy keeping me alive I begin to question what I was doing. Did I really need to suffer so much when Life had always provided me with everything I needed to have a comfortable and joyful existence?
The shelter isn't bad, it's actually awesome. I love what I've done so far and I'm sure it's going to get better and better. But when the heavy rain hits, and the leaks inside begin to moisten my bed... well, it's just not pretty. Going outside doesn't improve things on cloudy days. The lack of food variety in this time of year isn't helpful either.
Why have I been trying to be so pure? So clean and careful in a world where most people seek their comfort? I want to change things it's true, I want humanity to have a more conscious life and seek harmony with Nature. But if the price of that is me having a really unpleasant experience all the time (in this weather I mean, in summer I can run around naked and eat flowers for all I care), there's just no self-love in that, and I think that harmony stems from self-love.
Those days of pain I thought about what would make me feel better. What came to mind might seem basic and not so "elevated" to many, but it was just the truth of what I wanted. I wanted to have enough money to spend freely on the things I would need to improve my quality of Life and a beautiful companion that made me feel that Life was sweet once again.
After all this meditation and working hard to strengthen myself, I wanted what most men want, I was just as common as any man out there. And you know what? It's cool. It's alright. I don't need to be so fucking special. Plus, I'm special whether I want to be or not. We all are.
I wrote a post during one of those days. And I asked to manifest 30 dollars daily into my bank account which is something I've thought about a lot. Because I usually don't spend that much money in my ascetic lifestyle. I spend that much in a week. But also I don't live the best way either. I've been eating few veggies and fruits, almost no nuts, few seeds. Just grain, legume, and local mushrooms. Grain, legume, and mushrooms. Day after day. Forgotten the joy of eating.
The day I published that post I received 200 thousand CLP which equals nearly 277 dollars, money that the government is giving out due to the pandemic situation. ¨Prayer was answered, magic had happened. Ok, so it hasn't been 30 USD raining into my account daily, but it gave me an idea.
One of the spiritual perspectives around money is that it's energy that goes around. You close up to it and it goes away. You open up and it flows to you. So I have all this "energy" mainly here on Hive, which is nice because it flows over to different hands. But at the same time I'm having unmet necessities in my life.
The idea is that I should transform this energy (money) into the things I need (food, clothing, protection for the shelter, power tools that can work with my solar panels, more renewable energy investment). I assume that once it has been put to work I will increase the amount of energy I'm managing in my life, which will lead to a not so depressive winter.
So here's my plan: I will spend 30 USD daily. I know it's not sustainable from a rational point of view, as I don't make nearly that amount. I'll be spending my savings. But it's an experiment to prove a theory: it's not sustainable rationally but it is from a magical point of view. Because that energy will flow and move around, and that is all that matters. Numbers don't help you improve your life, energy and useful stuff do.
If the experiment is super successful, I should have no problem money-wise and great abundance should start to come in the material plane. If I end up just wasting all my savings, then it's not that much of a problem, I'll just keep living the same way I am living today.
Also, I'll try to post all my spending so the blogging should help me with that too. The idea is to spend in proportions since the things I feel I should have are of different values. I'll spend 3:2:1. 3 for daily supplies, 2 for mid-term investments, 1 for long term investments. 30 dollars divided like this would be bundles of 15, 10, and 5 dollars.
For example in a day I would spend and save:
- 15 dollars on food/clothes/candles/cheap stuff
- 10 dollars saved for an electric chainsaw (mid-term compared to a solar panel kit)
- 5 dollars saved for a solar panel kit
I'll blog all this and place some progress bars on each thing I'm gathering coin for. With the current price of Hive, I should be able to go for a month in this spending spree hehe. Let's see what actually happens ;)