After reading your post:
https://www.torum.com/post/614bf895201afc71b120ab72, I was compelled to offer this reply...
It's obvious to me that you're suffering from classical burnout syndrome, my friend.
It's kinda like when I was operating in the military. Funny thing. I rarely got sick during a mission. It was always afterwards during the inevitable "let-down" phase.
Adrenaline has a wonderfully unique way of letting you continue fighting - no matter what.
But as soon as the dangers are no longer a threat to you and your team's lives or limbs, everyone's nervous system REQUIRES a recuperative period.
That's why I almost always suffered from extreme fatigue and flu-like symptoms after every difficult op.
Now, back to your situation.
I recommend that you continue writing and creating your art with a different mindset; that is, at your own pace.
Try posting those morning brain dumps on at least two blogging sites.
Don't expect to get thousands of followers or super rich overnight. It doesn't work that way. It usually takes years to become "an overnight success".
Besides, successful people don't do things for the money. They do them for the experience.
Your main goal is to write and create because you want to, not because you have to.
After you have leisurely built up a nice inventory of posts and followers, you'll then have the wherewithal and a ready-to-use inventory of past work.
You could start any one of a wide array of new ventures such as writing a self-published book on Kindle, cross-posting onto other blogging platforms, making your past work into audiobooks, posting on YouTube again, whatever.
TBH, I am constantly pulling material from my years worth of casually writing down my musings and posting them on several sites.
I am just now experimenting with converting them into audio.
Who knows, maybe I'll combine those audio files with my rediscovered penchant for digital art and make a combination audiovisual NFT?
Imagine this.
All of my Torum images are still created on my cheap smartphone and free Android apps.
That learning experience in itself could be crafted into a "How I made, minted and profited from NFTs using only my cheap smartphone and free Android Apps" mini-instructional series.
What I'm trying to say is that I'm sure that all you need is to allow yourself to breathe and enjoy what you enjoy; free from unreasonable expectations and unnecessary self-imposed pressures.
Before you do anything, simply say to yourself - and believe it, "I can."
You got this, buddy.
May you and yours be well and love life today, my friend.
In Lak'ech, JaiChai
(JaiChai 25 SEP 2021. Simultaneous multi-site submissions posted. All rights reserved.)